NH underground Forum 5-12-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

I was in Newmarket NH Sunday walking down a street when I saw a man with a cane and an beautiful woman trying to remove two trees that had fallen over their wooden fence leaning against the neighbors electrical lines. The roots of the tall pine were half out of the ground and the other was a tall oak tree that the branch has twisted from the wind and was on top of the power line. I told the couple that my car was a short distance away, that I would go home and get some equipment and be back in a half hour. The big pine tree I hooked onto with a chain and pulled it back up, right off the power lines with my truck and then cut it down. The huge oak branch I wrapped a chain around to pull off the power line but it turned out so rotten it demolished it self when the truck pulled.

This couple had a garage full of tools and equipment that they were going to sell or give away. They told me to take what I wanted. The man had a stroke years ago and the woman was getting ready for retirement. I looked at all the stuff and my mind went wild. It was like a dream come true. When I help someone I do not accept payment. I could see this couple was not struggling but life was not easy for them either. At least I assumed because of the stroke and retirement age. I thanked them and went off on my walk thinking what a great life that I have.

I tell you this story because the NH underground blog cut my letters. It was my fault because I some how posted them more than once. That is ok because “life is great” The NH insider blog refuses to accept my letters as well as the newspapers in NH. I am lucky though because no matter what they do to me I can always volunteer to help someone and feel good. I am a 100% disabled veteran that the NH government and courts declared a terrorist because I stated in court papers to the NH supreme court that Judge Peter Fauver criminally violated the law to harm NH residents. The NH SC covered up the crimes. (2003-0477) The VA stopped my medical care to aid the NH government and courts to silent my free speech. The State, local police along with the Strafford county sheriff intimidate and harass my family. I am a no-body which makes me one of the average citizens of the U.S. This is a true story.

Ask why newspapers and blogs do not want to tell the truth? I continue to volunteer because of what I did as a US Marine. I should have died overseas. I should have killed my self years ago when I came back to “the world”. A place that I do not belong. The VA, NH government and Boston Globe ask me to commit suicide, yet the Boston Globe (or any newspaper for that matter) will not print my opinion.

Some day the government will put limits on people helping others with out high authority permission. Hopefully some day Veterans will be recognized and accepted by the nation we gave our lives for. I volunteer to make America better.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

What can be said 5-11-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

How do we handle this? What can be said? I volunteer my time to help people. I do it to make the United States a better place for all. I have violated no laws. Most people tell me to keep it up and continue to write and inform them. This government imposed criminal event all started because I volunteered to help a family in Madbury NH that only knew me from my letter to the editor. Judge Peter Fauver criminally violated the law to harm this family to protect the Madbury governments acts of personal revenge against this family. The NH Supreme Court refused to hear the case 2003-0477 because it was presented by a 100% disabled U.S. Marine that dropped out of high school at 17. The facts and truth were clearly stated. The State of NH puts me in jail as a terrorist to cover up Fauver’s crimes. The VA stops my medical to aid the NH government’s crimes. The newspapers out right take the government’s side because I am a no-body. What should I do?

I have medical problems all from serving our country. What I do is for our country. I do not want your sympathy. I want people to start openly talking and ask why the newspapers refuse to publish the truth. Wrongs committed by government can and must be corrected in a non-violent manner. You have taken my health by stopping my VA medical care, my freedom, money, friends and much more and I still refuse to be violent. NH has the State and local police along with the Strafford county sheriff harass my family. I continue to volunteer fight for this Madbury family because it is the right thing to do. The VA and NH government tell me out right to commit suicide. The Boston Globe tells me in writing to commit suicide. I am a 100% disabled Veteran that the news media and government are ordering me to commit suicide.

I know why our military commit suicide in country, or later when they return, because we realize that you can not accept what we have become. Do you know how close I come every day to ending it. Now I am under orders by the very people that we give our lives for as children to kill my self. The government is not trying to prevent Veteran suicide, it is just a mirage so they look good.

There is absolutely nothing that I can do beside fall victim to the criminal actions of our government. The blood dripping off my hands and bayonet that I wiped on the pants of the dead “gook” rages in my head. The shock in this boys eyes imprinted in my brain for eternity as his life less body leaves my hand. I should never have come home to a place where you take my freedom because I dare question the government’s criminal acts to harm this Madbury NH family. We gave our lives to be silenced by our own country because we volunteer to help others.

My Letters are scary but they are the truth. For the news media to tell me to commit suicide then refuse to print my response. I just do not know how to handle it? Live Free or Die

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Positive thinking 5-10-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

I want to talk about good today. I had coffee at Young’s restaurant this morning only to learn about a friends death. Linda Bishop was someone that I knew many years ago when she worked at Horse Feathers in Dover NH. I only knew her to talk to but she was like a magnet of joy that spread to me because from her. A waitress at Young’s reminded me of her, then it clicked where I knew her from. I read the newspaper article about her final years on earth. My mental tunnel formed as I emerged in a friendly village deep in the “Bush” where we would spend the night. I was sitting eating my C-rats next to a 5 year old boy. No one spoke American. We would sleep with eight other people in a hooch (shack) 12’x12’ that night. Children played with spent ammo parts or carved wood made into toys. I tried to understand if life was like this back in the states “World”. I had no memory of the U.S. because of a Brain Injury. I had learned a while back sitting in a benjo ditch to avoid free fire waiting for a squad of planes to return that the best way to avoid fear was to make the best out of the situation. A brother Marine told me he thinks of good times back in the U.S. “World” just to escape the realities of his lingering death. I understood this is how other Marines accept the unknown so I started using it in order to be a good Marine. I would make up stories from ones I heard other Marines talk about. I would dream of the “round eyed” girls that I was writing too. I was now sitting in a restaurant in NH trying to understand how Linda could have been that young girl. Linda was like millions of other U.S. citizens trying to make a future for herself. How could I forget that I knew her? How could I forget that little boy?

I try to understand how the VA , NH judges and government officials can violate the law that we gave our lives to preserve and no one cares. Mental illness is a growth only the weak allow. Suicide is a sword of life to stop the silent voices of reality. I grow each day to try to understand that which I do not remember. The VA stops a 100% disabled veteran’s medical which tells me my pain is not real. The State, local Police and sheriff harass and intimidate as a way to remind me the horrors of the friendly villages could be my place for eternity. I volunteer each day to help others as a way so I can say thanks to those that gave so I could come back to the “World”. Volunteering helps people like that of young girls that I wrote many years ago have a better future. Maybe some day I will be lucky enough to meet Linda in a friendly village in eternity.

The good of this letter is that may be I can make the United States understand our children (Military) “in country” mental state. Suicide is accepting the reality that we can not change. The ones that commit suicide over there understand they do not belong back here. The ones that commit suicide back here learned that civilized society did not want to accept what they now came home as. Us weak minded ones continue with the hope that the tunnel stop the silent and life will get better.

The newspapers will not print this opinion, this is why we do not belong back here. Our words are silent because civilized society does not want us. I was injured twice more in separate combat support missions. The Boston Globe and VA tell me to commit suicide. No one cares. Linda and that little boy, I hope life is better where every you are now. My wish is that this good letter makes you understand positive thinking.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

People say 5-9-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

People say it could never happen to them! I volunteer every day to help others no matter what? I have volunteered every day since I returned to “The World” in 74. People tell me that my situation is impossible to believe. Police beat people and unless someone has a camera going at the time, the police deny it. Society respect the police so we believe them. People tell me that we have checks and balances that I can find a Constitutional attorney Pro Bono. Attorneys so far just want to deny that judges and government officials violate peoples rights. Attorney’s take an oath to protect each other above all else. The courts are so corrupt that the NH supreme court refuse to take a case that reeks of judicial miss conduct, because a high school drop out, 100% disabled Marine presented it. Case # 2003-0477. Newspapers refuse at all costs to print my opinion letters because the authority has stereo typed me. I am not mad or vengeful toward the government officials that have violated our Constitution. I peacefully and with dignity want to correct the wrongs in government. I will not violate the law as they want me to. I want the newspapers to print the truth before it happens to you!

A State cop told me yesterday, “Peter you can not win, the police and prosecutors can convict anyone. The people believe defendants guilty because with the right judge a jury will believe we tell the truth and with character assignation a jury convicts and the public believes, look at the Gary Dodd case”. I bet Gary said at one time “that could never happen to me”. I volunteer my time. You can not say that I am looking for my fifteen minutes of fame because of the medical and physical harm the government has done and I still work for you the people. The Strafford county sheriff tells me “they do not work for the people, their job is to protect judges from people like me”.

I am 100% disabled U.S. Marine. The VA and Boston Globe tell me to commit suicide. The VA and NH government stop my VA medical. I am jailed, they deplete my money, alienate my friends and harass my family, all in the attempt to get me to commit suicide or break the law so they win. I tell you the people Judge Peter Fauver violated the constitution to intentionally harm NH residents against the peace and dignity of the State of NH. I have said this many times in writing. If what I was saying was not the truth you can bet a libel suit and harm would be inflicted on me by the judicial system legally.

Freedom of the press ethically, morally and legally demands that every newspaper in the United States print my opinion because freedom is “We the people” standing against totalitarianism which is the power of the government, not the people is paramount. Judge Peter Fauver and the other criminal government officials working to protect their dominant powers will some day control you, then you do not have to worry about it happening to you. Censorship by the newspapers is wrong.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Volunteer, selfish act 5-8-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

I went to Maine yesterday and spent the day with a wonderful woman and her husband. A friend asked me if I would volunteer some time to help him and a paid employee do some yard clean up. Married for less that one year she because of a routine physical last month discovered she had lung cancer. Next week she goes into the hospital to have her lung removed. Six to eight weeks of recovery then chemo therapy.

The yard clean up turned out to be cutting down 80’to 100’ pine trees and stacking the brush in burn piles. We had a pretty good size bob cat, but it was hard work, any how. The morning went great. I had my back brace on so I could do a little with the chain saw, some bob cat work and stacking brush. Every once in a while I would look over and see the beautiful young lady sitting on the back deck watching us. Then about noon she yelled lunch and what a lunch. Steak tips, cheese burgers and a great salad. We finished and her husband, my friend and the employee went back to work. I before lunch started seeing double, was dizzy and my head pain got to the point that I was stumbling over objects on the ground. I stayed back for a longer break, this is when I learned the story about the newly weds. I eventually went to work but was limited to doing much because of the pain. At about 4 the employee was getting ready to leave for his night college courses. As we were saying good by the wife came out of the house with a birthday cake singing happy birthday. At lunch the employee mentioned the day before was his twenty first birthday. This woman with all the pressure and turmoil in her life went out of her way to make a life better for someone else.

The husband and my friend went back to work but my day was done. I stayed on the deck with the wife. The back yard was fully exposed to the sun as the wife expressed her joy. It was her dream to be able during her recovery period to lay on the back porch in the sun. She then asked me why I was in so much pain. I explained that I was a 100% disabled Veteran. She asked why I volunteer when it hurts me. I explained how nice it was for her to bring the cake out. She with that act opened a joy in every one’s heart which will be remembered. I volunteer because other Marines died so that the people had the ability to do anything they wished. I told her how the U.S. exists because over it’s history many gave their lives for future generations freedom. I told the wife that I volunteer because I owe those that gave their lives the respect (no matter how much it hurt) to make the U.S. better so what they gave was not in vain. My volunteering is like the cake, it is my selfish act to make the U.S. a better place for all.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Another Day 5-07-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Newspapers refuse to print my opinion, yet they print articles to hurt my character. People tell me that you can not fight city hall, yet is this not a country where the government is of the people. People tell me that I should get a lawyer, yet it is the government and courts that are committing the crimes. People tell me that I should see a doctor yet it is the VA medical that stopped my care. The VA, Boston Globe and NH government tell me that I should commit suicide and the VA suicide hot line pushed me toward that goal many times, yet everyone tells me suicide is not the solution. The police protect and serve the people, yet they are the ones sent to inflict harassment on my family to force me into suicide. I am 100% disabled from my time in the U.S. Marine Corps. Two or my three injuries are combat related, yet my country disowns me. People tell me that they believe in what I am doing, yet no one will speak publicly on my behalf for fear of government retribution. Newspapers claim to the public that they have constitutional protection to print the truth, yet refuse to tell the other side. My traumatic brain injury left me with no child hood memory, yet I still went to a conflict and gave my life for your freedom. I have a broken back received during a combat offensive, yet continued to do my job to protect our Constitution. I lost my hearing during another offensive by being blown off the runway, yet I never stopped giving my all for you. I killed in hand to hand combat and live every day since with flash backs of a time better forgot, yet my life is not worth my words to be printed. Newspaper harp on printing about Veteran’s suicides but refuse to tell the news of how NH is destroying a Veteran’s life.

It is hard for the people to believe that the government, courts and VA can purposely use the almighty power to destroy a 100% disabled U.S. Marine. It is hard to believe that the Boston Globe would tell me in writing to commit suicide and not print my opinion. I am proud of every thing that I have done because I did it for the people of the U.S. and my country. My mental state and disabilities are being used by the newspapers and government to harm me in the public eye, yet the public allows my medical to be stopped to benefit these criminals. Suicide is our military’s best option because you do not understand why we your children give our lives for our country.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

VA mental experiment 5-06-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

A VA Dr once asked me “If I was a government experiment to see how some one with total memory loss from a service related injury would react in different situation”. I receive two more disabling separate combat related injuries during my tour. The VA last year told me that I suffer from PTSD. Why would the VA stop my medical care at the vengeful request of a NH U.S. congresswoman and no one cares? Yesterday I was inches away from ending my confusing when Dr Dan from the VA called. Dan is off on Mondays and only calls in the early morning. Why did he call at noon?

A Madbury NH family calls me to ask for help. I did not know this family, they called in response to a letter to the editor that I wrote. I dropped out of high school at 17 to join the Marine Corps. Judge Peter Fauver makes me an attorney to represent this family under a little used NH law. We prove beyond any doubt 29 constitutional crimes by the Madbury selectmen and Judge Fauver. The NH Supreme court refuse to hear a case that questions the integrity of the NH courts by a high school drop out. I am put in jail as a terrorist because I will not stop helping this family. The crimes being committed by the courts and government officials goes unquestioned. The newspapers take the government position and protect them from exposure. I learned in the MC about the constitution and how it is the guaranteed protection of every individual equally. I learned newspapers was a checks and balance to expose government wrongs and protect the people. Did I miss something, am I paranoid, what happen?

NH elected officials tell me straight out that what is happening to me is wrong but they refuse to help. The VA Inspector General is aware of the crimes and refuses to even answer me. The State and local police, along with the Strafford county Sheriff harass me as recently as last week. The VA, NH official and the Boston Globe tell me to commit suicide in writing. Now a VA Dr treats me after my medical was stopped and I find out the VA officials are using this treatment to doctor the books to make me appear a liar. The thing is that I have all the letters and documents from each and no one cares. I like Dr Dan and consider him a friend are we being used.

Am I a Vietnam conflict victim and this is a dream to punish me for my killing other human beings? Did I ever come home, is this home? Is this an experiment that has just gone to far? Ask your self why do newspapers censor a story that would uncover wrong in government? How do I end it, if there is even an ending. What I write here is the truth, I am as confused as you. I came back to “The world” from a conflict that I do not belong.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Volunteer or kill 5-05-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Volunteer every day helping others since 1974 when I returned from a conflict with a Traumatic Brain Injury (No memory of my life) and two more injuries received during separate combat support missions. I have not violated the law, except to write letters to the editor every day. I clearly state and document judges and government officials committing crimes against the peace and dignity of the State of NH. The news purposely shelters the public from learning the facts. The police; State, Local and Federal harass my family to stop my letters. The judicial branch of government is so biased the NH Supreme Court refuses to allow a high school drop out, 100% disabled U.S. Marine to question the integrity of the courts. Elected government officials read my letters every day and comment that I must let my crusade go, that elected officials are to powerful for the public to change. NH State senators tell me that I should start a Veteran’s group to help children of deployed military cope with not understanding. This group would allow me to divert my energy to a positive cause. I made a miss take this weekend writing about helping a little boy, know about his father (Deployed to Iraq) love did not stop. I volunteer every day helping others, not to write about but to allow me to show respect for those that over the history of the U.S. that served and some gave their lives for Our Nation. I wrote that letter (not for credit or pat on the back) because a NH state Senator asked me to write about something positive. I wrote that letter with the hope that people across the U.S. would read it and learn. Volunteering is not for recognition, or any thing else. Volunteering is giving from the heart to make the United States better.

The people of NH believe that I am a criminal. They believe that I am dangerous. Our government officials publicly degrade my character to stop my exposing government wrongs. Publicly (according to the gov I am a hazard, public enemy) my loyalty is questioned every day. Through this nine year ordeal of helping a Madbury NH family being persecuted and harmed by the Madbury government for the selectmen’s personal revenge I have not stopped volunteering.

NH Governor Lynch refuses to speak with me. Our elected officials read my letters and agree with them but refuse to talk about it. The judicial branch is so powerful harming the public is a routine event. The State Police stormed my house last week as harassment. The VA stops my VA medical for political favors to NH elected officials. The Strafford county Sheriff harasses me last month to show the public that they serve and protect criminal judges from public exposure. The Constitution calls for taking up arms and killing. I volunteer and will not be violent because someday silently my efforts to make the United States better will hopefully come true. I volunteer because little boys need to know Daddy left because (daddy believes) the United States is this little boys future to a nation where every one has equal protection of the law. Volunteering gives me peace that maybe the atrocity committed as a U.S. Marine had a purpose. Governor some day you will hear (maybe not my words) the words of freedom. Place your loyalties (to government officials) aside and do a volunteer act to make NH better for all citizens.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Mental U.S. Marine 5-3-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

I have to write this scary letter today, not for you but me. It is now 7am in the morning. I just returned from reading the paper at the local restaurant. I write this now because it is so clear what happen and in a few hours I most likely will not remember it happening. My F-150 pick up was traveling down the road like each morning as if it was on cruise control. A song from the radio triggered memory of my tour. My vision seemed to form a tunnel which I was happy, lonely, depressed, confused all in one. Was I here or where was I? Last night at a party a friend said “Marines do cry”. I do not remember the party but I do remember those words. I sat and talked with a boy yesterday because he could not perceive why is father (deployed to Iraq) could be so hurt full to his mother by going. What right did I have to stop and talk to a boy that I did not know? Did I really talk to him. I volunteer every day and people tell me that I am crazy to help others when the State of New Hampshire publicly lists so many faults with my character. Why do I volunteer? I think of killing my self every day. Did I every return from my tour? I remember nothing good from my tour in the Marine Corps but I tell people that I would not trade a second of it. The tunnel forms the degrading conditions of the friendly villages that I spent nights at while on convoy. The deplorable smell coming from the ground. My words become a bayonet, the boy becomes a “gook” and his lawn mower becomes my M-16. The steering wheel of my F-150 becomes the wire placed around my wrists and the head lights become the flickering flames of the fire. Why was I allowed to come back? What did I do that I have to live a dream life with a great wife and daughters, nice home and no way to justify if I am really here or not? So many better Marines with more to give died. Was my killing an innocent human being real? I have no guilt or shame for what I have done. Am I real? I clearly see a girl at the San Francisco Airport yelling at me “Baby Killer” as I enter round eyed country for the first time that I remember. I meet my family for the first time in a life with out killing, explosions and living like a pig.

With no understanding how, I am sitting at Young’s restaurant reading the Sunday paper drinking coffee. Was the tunnel real? If I was really there and now here why does the newspapers have the right to censor my letters. Did I kill and Innocent human being for a now worthless piece of paper? “Constitution”

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Amazing True Story 5-03-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Today I volunteered for Bambi Miller at the Strafford County Conservation District second time this week. The number of people volunteering to help the plant sale be a success was amazing. NH Residents buying plants for their spring yards, with happy faces and cheerful words. Bambi is a joy to volunteer for because she is so organized.

We finished transporting plants for Bambi so I went for a walk in Dover NH. I did not get far when I noticed a boy tinkering with his lawn mower deep in thought. I said hi and asked if he needed help getting it started. The frustration and anger just did not seem to fit this stranger to me’s personality as he in a quite voice said could you? I am not a mechanic but a few simple checks of the gas, spark plug and other things could not hurt and maybe will help. The boy started explaining what went wrong and then looked at me and said “do I know you” I acknowledge that I did not know him but may be he has seen me around Dover some place. A strange thing happen, both of us just sat down as something between us clicked. He started telling me about his mother and how he tries to help her out because his DAD was sent to Iraq 6 months earlier. He started telling me how proud he was of his dad in the beginning. Then he believes that some how now he hates his dad for leaving his mother who is struggling ever day and he hears her cry every night. They are in contact every week with his dad. His dad each time tells them how great life is over there. How his dad is really enjoying being deployed while his mother suffers. The boy had heard on the news that a I.E.D killed Marines near where his dad was stationed earlier that day. The boy was feeling bad because he was so angry at his dad but what if his dad was killed. What if his dad comes home disabled, like others that loose their jobs, family and life because nothing back here is the same.

I explained that I was a 100% disabled U.S. Marine. I understood that his father did say he was enjoying life deployed but that is so the boys mother did not worry. That his mother was not crying because his father was enjoying life but because she missed him and was worried about him. I explained how his father has changed just joining the military. That something inspires boys that join the military to learn a pride in this nation that can not be compared to anything else. That no matter what; dad would be different when he comes home. The conditions of combat and the death and destruction will have an impact on his dad. His dads love for the boy and his mother will never be less, that the love will grow stronger. I compared the boys dads returning behavior to the lawn mower that a little love and attention will make life better. At that moment I noticed a stick had dislodged the spark plug wire. I pointed to it as the Boy pushed it back on. Looking at me the word “Terrorist” came out of the boys mouth. I read about you in the paper a while back. You are nothing like what I read. I explained that the newspapers hype up the facts to impress the readers. I explained that I was not a terrorist that I was just helping a Madbury family with a zoning issue. That when a citizen questions the integrity of a judge or government official some times they violate the law to stop your exposing the wrongs in government. Just like his worries about his father some day he will look back and realize that the pride he learned of the United States places his nation above his family for their future. The lawn mower then stated and the boy took it for a test run. I just got up and left. I hope some how I helped this boy understand.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi