Veteran’s Need Suicide 7-9-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Can you imagine the need to be truthful. A Veteran thinks about suicide. I think ever day about taking my own life. So much at this very moment . I get a kick out of those few e-mails that I get, questioning my sanity. Lay the guilt on me, a person that writes about suicide so much can not have any compassion for any other people, some say. I do not ask sympathy or pity from any one. I stand on my own two feet and believe in what I learned as a U.S. Marine with total amnesia. This person with no compassion volunteers every single day to help others. I give my life to make the United States better because I do not want to see what other Military personal gave their lives for to be in vain. You that never served mock me. That is ok because that is what Veterans gave their lives for. “Freedom” Can you imagine giving your life for people you never met or will ever know, children not born yet. My memory starts at 17 when I woke up in a military hospital. I have no child hood memories.

Yesterday and today have been so filled with pain and confusion. I have no idea which end is up. I like doctor Dan because he illustrated that people really care about veterans and their welfare. I can no longer talk to Dr Dan because I feel that the VA is using him to cover up the record that my medical care has been stopped. This is a crime of the highest magnitude. People tell me that I keep repeating what has already been said. If it has been said and no one does anything about it, what is wrong? Did I grow as a U.S. Marine to come home to a country that stands for some thing different than what I gave my life for. Can you imagine telling the truth and having every one mock you. Can you imagine running for public office and have the newspapers and other elected officials so scared that I might win that they keep the public from learning my platform. Is what I learned to believe (We the People) about the U.S. fictional? Can you imagine coming home to a country with serious disabilities from fighting for your country only to have medical care stopped because Editors, VA personal and elected officials want to stop your letters to the editor. These are criminal acts committed by the authority we give our trust too. You the people are so afraid to speak up that they will some day dominate the U.S.

Imagine the news media has a reason for protecting people with power to allow a few to dominate. I believe the news was given constitutional protection to allow the people a means to correct the wrongs in government. The news tells you that I am dangerous. That is their belief. The news has no reason or ethical choice to print their belief’s with out proof. Can you imagine that I gave my life for you and you do not even care. My life has nothing to do with it. Think of your children going of to war or a conflict giving their lives for an abstract meaning that does not Exist. Can you imagine the truth when it is your child giving so much for people that have no compassion.

The truth is so powerful that editors and government officials must violate every meaning that the United States of America was built on to stop my being elected. Imagine the truth can be so powerful, that a criminal state is born. You have no idea what I did as a U.S. Marine. Veteran’s do it for you. The truth is (to kill is the first thought on a Marines mind every day) can you imagine?

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

VA suicide Hotline 7-8-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Veterans Suicide Hotline is a dangerous government image to waste tax dollars and harm the Veteran. The theory behind the program is admirable, but the purpose is not to help the Veteran, it is to make some elected official look good. I read in the paper today that a Veteran’s family was worried because a veteran was in distress and depressed because of Flash-backs. The family tried to call the VA suicide hotline only to be caught in the maze of telephone transfers between government computers. If one does get through a phone person that has never been their (silent demons of WAR) will try to convince the person that he needs help.

Where have we come, as a Nation. The Men and Woman that preserve our freedom and protect and defend our Constitution have become political wedges to aid in elections only. The biggest offenders is the newspapers. Given Constitutional protection these vehicles of freedom print not to inform the readers but to in-rage people because that sell more papers. The Boston Globe wrote me and told me to commit suicide before writing another letter to the editor. No newspaper, even the Boston Globe will print my letters. The Veterans Administration is using the VA suicide hotline to inflict distress in my life so that I will commit suicide. The Person in charge of the NH Veteran’s Administration told me to commit suicide if I will not take personality control medication. The NH state police come to my home and tell me that my letters are causing problems in Concord that the governor would prefer that I commit suicide. I have a VA Dr of Psy. Dr Dan that I respect. This man puts his full effort and more to helping Veterans. I told Dr Dan No more seeing him because the VA is using him to fluff up my medical records to cover up that my medical care has stopped. Yes I think about suicide every day. I came back from the Vietnam Conflict with the Demons of War in my head.

Veteran’s (WE) gave our lives for the United States of America. My opinion letters are factual and are printed publicly on the web so there is no liability to stop the newspapers from printing them. I am a U.S. military Veteran (100% disabled) running for public office and the Newspapers will not print my platform. Where have be come as a Nation.

Yes I have dreamed of suicide every day since I realized that I came back to a country that I do not belong. Yesterday I was in so much pain, (in my back, head and legs) and my head could not stop seeing what I did as a U.S. Marine. You do not think Reality tells me that suicide would be the best answer. Many trusted Public officials (people we trust) have criminally violated the law. I have no place to go. The newspapers have stereotyped me (such a bad person) even my friends question my being associated with them. I volunteer every day to help others. I did for over 20 something years volunteered in schools across the state. The Newspapers and NH government took that away by under the Patriot Act declaring me a terrorist and the newspapers inflating the story. They never printed that the bogus charges were dropped after I lost my freedom for 6 months. The VA suicide hotline is a vehicle used by elected officials for their own demented reasons. I do not question the sincerity of the people working the hot lines, just like, I could never question VA personal such as Dr Dan. We now live in a nation where so few make the majority fear full of retaliation from the people that we trust.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi