Reality Violence. 8-3-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Grip the reality that your motivation in life is to kill. Killing is your job. You are trained to risk everything, even your life if necessary to complete the mission. Other men’s lives are used with out feelings or emotions as if they were toys. You are a trained machine that destroys and uses up every element around until the job is complete or you are dead. A injury leaves you with no memory of what living in a civilized society is but one day “puff” life in the United States begins. My orders are to adjust and maintain. The confusion, chaos, and miss understanding of what is happening. Do I accept this is my mother, father, brothers and sister. Do I believe what people around me say because they identify themselves as childhood friends. I go to school, get married, have kids but my memory can leave me for days at a time. I constantly re-live a place the people around me now say what we did was wrong. The pain and memory of breaking my back during a Vietnam offensive to keep one of my men alive cripples my movements every day. The silence created by being blown off a runway during another Vietnam Offensive limits my social contacts because I can not hear complete conversations or words. At night a journey with my family down a dark highway creates an environment where I re-live being an American Advisor on Thai convoys deep into the bush days at a time. I kill a child with a bayonet to get my M-16 back and escape as if it was the first time over and over again. The Forth of July fireworks each year brings out the hours spent on the side of a runway waiting for the aircraft we shot off the Catapult to return. You listen to the bangs of the explosions, a few seconds after the horizon light up. People around you now question your silence and failure to participate as I grip reality and try to understand what is around me.

I am a 100% service connected disabled veteran with four life changing disabilities. I am running for District 21 NH state senate. The Boston Globe tells me to commit suicide in writing. The NH director of the VA tells me to take mind controlling drugs or commit suicide, my choice. The NH Governor sends the State police to my home to tell me my letters are causing problems in the state capital that my suicide was preferred. The news media refuse to inform the public about my candidacy or these crimes against a disabled Veteran. I have described in depth about how the Madbury NH selectmen use government powers for revenge against local residents. How Judge Fauver used the courts and law to protect the selectmen’s crimes. How the NH government used my freedom as a weapon to stop my free speech. How NH U.S. congress woman used my medical condition to take my freedom. How the VA stopped my medical care for the NH director’s political advantage. No one cares about our freedom>

These are what I understood to be crimes against the peace and dignity of the United States of America. Everyone is to afraid to speak or wants to cover up the crimes for a reason that I can not under stand. The system seems to want to push me to the edge and further. Freedom of speech and the election part (where my candidacy is censored) makes me question. Was I really a United States Marine that was lucky enough to come back or am I still in the “Bush” dreaming of coming back to a place I have no memory of. I am running for District 21 NH state senate. Is it not the news media’s obligation to inform the public? Have I reached the edge and it is time to go? Does reality, really have a grip? Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper fi