Veronica from Craigs list 6-5-09

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

I got an email from Veronica today. She read my letter on craigs list. Many thousands of people every day read my letters it is hard to understand why the newspapers do not publish them. Any way Veronica told me about her boy friend whom everyone believes is crazy because he served three tours in Iraq. This illustrates what I have been telling you all along. People believe that U.S. Military that return and are no longer in uniform should just fit into society. Veronica in her email to me indicated that she is a wonderful (unknowingly) person just like my wife. She may not understand but tolerates and hope that we last another day because there must be some good in us that just has not come out yet. It is our dark moments that are very seldom revealed to anyone in the present but are our ever lasting ghosts. This is why society just does not get it. Our rambling opinion from crazy repetitive unpublished letters escapes yours and our reality. In Veronica writing to me, understanding that some day citizens that have never been in country may some day accept U.S. Military veterans coming home.

I, was in a way lucky because my memory was taken from me before I left the U.S. from a traumatic brain injury. Learning how to survive and live as a Marine gave me a chance back here. I volunteer helping others every day. Like yesterday enduring the back pain and throbbing head pain until finally blood burst from my nose. Suicide is not my goal. Being on the government statistic of U.S. Military committing suicide does not interest me. Although the scare on my leg from last year when I jumped from a cliff to move on to a different place to achieve harmony is a reminder. I volunteer to make life better for others because it is the right thing to do. If dyeing in this fashion shames anyone it will not be the Military. My luck is that with three other disabilities from the MC learning how to survive back here as taken me on many adventures. Doing things others can even believe as possible. Helping others in situations where no one will go but silently aids society.

We (and I can put my self in this place) came back to a place that we do not belong. I believe in the U.S. as a place where the Constitution protected all the citizens equally. The NH supreme court covered up Judge Peter Fauver criminally violating this law. Fauver knowingly allowed the Madbury selectmen decide whom was good enough to live in Madbury NH. Those that were not good enough are driven out using the government powers illegally. I volunteer to help this family and our government put me in jail as a terrorist, took my money, VA medical care and much more. The Newspapers censor my opinion letters to protect their powerful friends. Some goody two shoes that read my letter mock them. Many in the public like Veronica see what is happening. Most stay silent because they are afraid of the power of government if helping me puts them on the bad list.

I thank everyone of you for and against what I am. Coming back alive was wrong because many better than I will never come home. I volunteer to show respect and honor so what they gave for will never be in VAIN!

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Absolute power corrupts 6-3-09

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Another Mass politician is taken down on corruption charges. We in NH believe that this state is above this. Well guess what! We are not> Our political leaders and justice department use the trusted powers granted them by the people to inflict pain and suffering on those that they need to control. I read today another opinion letter in the paper about Shea-Porter and the great job that she is doing. The paper refuses to print conflicting opinion letters that tell the other side. Ask your self if so much corruption is going on why do the newspapers not report it until after the politician is out of office. It is because these trusted government officials are connections for the newspapers. These politicians while in office have so much control that no one dares speak against them until they no longer carry a big stick. Shea-Porter took office and the editors immediately started kissing her _ _ _. Shea-Porter filed false police reports to get me arrested, yet nothing is done to her. Shea-Porter used her federal trusted powers to have a VA Dr attempt to use my combat related disabilities to take my freedom. The VA stopped my medical care to help Shea-Porter stop my opinion letters. The newspapers and our elected officials do not care about the people, only those that can benefit their own jobs or life. It is not just Mass, right here in NH Governor Lynch charged me money to speak with him, yet we never meet. Can talking be the proper way in a civilized society?

The facts are public record of NH and the courts protecting Judge Peter Fauver in his criminal use of the Constitution to harm U. S. citizens. NH Supreme Court case 2003-0477. The NH supreme court covered up the case. Fauver allowed the Madbury selectmen to discriminate by using government powers to remove local residents that the selectmen did not believe were good enough to live in Madbury NH. I volunteer my time to help this family and my world is torn apart. I do not stop though. I continue to help this family against all odds because government powers can not be used to harm the voters that speak out on wrongs in government. Absolute power corrupts and as long as you the people refuse to tell the editors to print the truth our nation will continue to diminish. The newspapers have done such a good job of scaring the people about me that my right to run for NH state senate was tampered with. I scare people because my belief in the U.S. is so strong that I can not back down no matter what they do to me. I have but one life and that belongs to the United States of America.

Can this 100% disabled United State Marine be so bad that the NH governor will not even speak to me? Can I be so bad that allowing the VA to inflame my head pain, back pain and loss of reality to make me commit suicide is justifiable? Absolute power corrupts but death brings Absolute peace to U.S. Military returning to a nation that will not accept us because our political leaders pet projects are more important until election time. During the campaign praise the Veteran and promise the world then place us on the back burner until next election year.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Where does a U.S. Military Veteran GO! 6-2-09

A copy to Dr Dan Potenza NH VAH

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Everyone wants to help, except those that label my letters as spam or repetitive. My letters are not spam because I do not just send them. My letters go to people that have the power and obligation to change the wrongs in government. My opinion goes to judges, lawyers, editors, government officials and more. The United States is our country and we must work to keep it free and equal justice for all. Everyone wants to help but no one does anything. Do not let politicians diminish our rights given by OUR Constitution.

The computer gives this 100% disabled veteran a way to inform the public of the wrongs, that judge Fauver is using court powers to create. A good family from Madbury NH asked me for help. I had never met this family before their phone call in 99. Can we the people allow rogue government officials to decide whom will be allowed to live in their community. People, this is discrimination and Fauver can not be allowed to inflict discrimination with his court rulings. The NH supreme court covered up the case to stop it from becoming public knowledge. You would think in this civilized society elected state officials would want to talk about this in a civilized manner. They not only refuse but use court and government powers to control and dictate that the little people must obey government orders. This is illegal. They (our government and judges) can not stop my writing opinion letters legally because they are true. No one wants to talk about it publicly. The governor took money from me for time to talk but he refuses to meet. I have a receipt. Our newly elected officials like Amanda Merrill NH State Senate was willing to talk while trying to get the vote but that stopped after elected. I have followed every legal procedure allowed by law. They have put me in jail, harassed my family and friends, took money and much more. They went so far as to stop my VA medical care for combat related disabilities. I volunteer my time to help this family. I gain nothing from helping the U.S. People, because the U.S. is ours not the governments.

I am confused. I honestly hope one of these times that I die in my attempts to end the memories of lonely ness and that I feel something for what this civilized society calls inhuman acts committed by me in the line of duty. I honestly feel like I am still there. I feel as if what I am doing does not make since. Why would a child be called a Sgt in the Marine Corps in charge of millions of dollars of equipment as an American Advisor on convoy deep in the bush. I had no memory of the U.S. I had no memory of anything because of Traumatic brain injury. What is happening to people back here according to what other Marines told me can not be. I feel like I escaped the homeless veteran scenario to be wrapped up in a conflict of rights. Dropped into a society with no memory to attempt to see how a Marine trained to kill would react when all is gone. This U.S. Marine has been alienated from speaking to the governor or any elected officials. Governor Lynch just tell me why? Why I came back alive? Why nothing makes any since to what the U.S. is suppose to be? I am a United States Marine that will respect the Constitution at all costs but I will not be violent against another U.S. Citizen. This is the United States of America where each individual comes before any government powers. Can you see why the homeless veteran or the returning veterans of today would rather commit suicide before being ridiculed in todays civilized society. I am asking for your help not your pity.

Peter Macdonald

Donations Please 6-1-09

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Why am I here?? The largest newspaper in NH, front page asks donations to pay for a funeral. Give me a break. We all have bills. On the same front page donations are asked for, to help a Coe-Brown girl go to college because her mother died. She smoked, drank, burned rubber in the Coe-Brown school parking lot when picking her girls up from school. The paper made it seem cool burning rubber where children could get hurt, by writing it on the front page. The paper refuses to tell stories about homeless veterans or veterans being denied medical care because of lost records or to stop some veterans from writing opinion letters. Why am I here, are the words spoke in times of desperation or lonely ness either waiting for the engagement to start or as the conflict rages around you. These are the words most U.S. Military Veterans have asked themselves one time or another. Should these be the words a 100% combat related disabled veteran should be asking while trying to survive in the State of New Hampshire?

The news refuses to tell of NH elected officials charging money for a voter to speak with them or just refusing to speak. How about the news refusing to speak about how they wrote articles to sway the voters not to vote for one candidate by printing half truths. Then they refuse to print that candidates response opinion letters stating his platform. The news refuse to tell NH that the VA stopped my medical care to stop my opinion letters. I do not burn rubber in any school parking lot but I do volunteer every day to help others. Why am I here?

I like Dr Dan. He is my VA nut doctor. He is a person that cares about the people that he treats. The VA is using him to tamper with my medical care to show that the VA is treating me. Dr Dan called me this morning but? There is no answers. I collapsed a few minutes ago in the arms of my wife. My back gave out. I broke my back during a Vietnam Offensive this is one of my four disabilities. I asked for pain medication over a year ago. The VA refuses but does send me to a civilian DR, then sends me the bill for the visit and medication. The VA suicide hot line called me several times this past weekend. The VA is using manipulation to try to get me to commit suicide. Why am I here. Or better yet why did I come back to a civilized society that does not want us to come back.

This is the NH judicial branch demonstrating not to tell publicly that Judge Peter Fauver is a criminal. I volunteer to help a family that I do not even know because they called me and asked. Judge Fauver uses court powers to help the Madbury selectmen decide whom to allow to live in their town. The NH supreme court covers up the case. NH takes my freedom by putting me in jail as a terrorist then drops the charges after six months, four days before the trial to stop newspaper coverage. Federal Rep Shea-Porter files false police reports to take my freedom and worse and nothing is done to her but the police come down on me. Why am I here?

Every elected official, newspapers and people with power refuse to speak with me. The NH governor Lynch tells me on the street to call him to set an appointment to speak but he never answers. Why am I here? With out falsely portraying, ridiculing sympathy understand that I volunteer to help you, at no cost to you the U.S. people. Can you understand the question Why did I come back alive, why am I here?

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Home Less U.S. Military Veteran 5-31-09

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls Rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

People talk but do they really see? This homeless veteran that I met under a bridge on the NH seacoast yesterday profoundly entered my mind. A brief encounter with a person whom appeared down on his luck. My facts may not be perfect but my need to convey this to anyone willing to listen. Daily my mind goes back into a place reliving life as a U.S. Marine. I see the face of the child that I killed, but even more so is the deep empty space that surrounds me as I sit complacent with death in a benjo ditch asking (why are we here)? I came back to enter the civilized society (a place that I have no memory of) that soon will be threshed upon me is unwilling to accept my kind as I stepped off the plane. Today, here under the bridge, I soon learned is a U.S. Veteran from the Vietnam Conflict. He married his high school sweet heart in his final year of college. I believe he was ROTC but that may be an assumption. He was a LT in the Army. He did a thirteen month tour in Vietnam about 5 meters from the DMZ. His daughter was born while on his tour. He came back, with an honorable discharge getting a good job and living life to the fullest. A few years back after his second child was born he started seeing his wife as a VC on and off. One day he just left believing that he might hurt his wife unknowingly. He has traveled across the U.S. working on and off trying to understand. He carries an old picture of a young lady, being his wife as he remembers her the day he left. He still loves and cares about her but never over the years went any closer than to see her from a distance as he watched his children grow. He gave up everything for the safety of his family with out telling a soul about his visions. People see this man as a bum homeless on the street.

I shared my take out last meal with this man as we talked. He came to NH because one of his grandchildren was now living up here. It was a bit of travel from the Midwest (where his wife is) for this now aging veteran but he wanted to see his grand child and family from a distance. Forgetting why I went to the coast I gave this man my last five dollars and left to go the bank. When I returned this veteran was no where to be found. I remembered later while thinking of this Veteran that suicide was my goal on the coast that day. I have everything any one could want in life except a memory of my child hood. Here was a U.S. Military Veteran that gave everything up for the safety of his family. Stereo typed as a bum he watches from a distance the family and country that he loves. No one knows or will even try to understand the difficulties that take over the mind of our returning U.S. Military even from todays wars and conflicts.

Society and the VA talk about preventing suicide among veterans, but do they really see what a returning U.S. Military veteran is?

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Good changes 5-30-09

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

With the Web and Blogs, no opinion should be censored. People may disagree or think others opinion are a waste of time. That is your choice. At one time Hitler was believed-in by the people that followed him. This was their choice. As a lot of other people disagreed with Hitlers view and when he tried to take over the world was rightly stopped. Your opinion should not be cut because some one did not like it. Editors hate to see my letter each day. They censor it because they believe my opinion is not worth publishing for fear of pissing off the (right) people. Finding other means to get the word out as a nation we the people can celebrate. Newspapers are a form of communication to inform the public. When editors believe any persons opinion is not to their liking, as a private business they are free to censor it. This may be wrong but that is the price of freedom. The truth as I see it can be delayed but not stopped. The peoples opinion especially when it documents wrongs in government should never be censored. The web allows editors to let the people read and decide for themselves. You-any one individual may not like my words but they are honest and truthful. I volunteer so what I do is of no gain to my self or family. It is hard to believe someone would put his life, family and everything else on the line for his country. This is what our U.S. Military do every day that they serve. We are the people that defend and protect your freedom so people can tell editors that Good Changes are censoring opinion that is not liked by some.

Can you imagine having your medical care for combat related disabilities stopped as a weapon to stop your opinion? Are judges so above the law the NH supreme court is allowed to let a judge like Fauver violate the individual rights of U.S. citizens to benefit the power of the Madbury selectmen to dictate whom is good enough to live in their town. Do editors have the right to censor opinion of the public that exposes these wrongs in government because certain readers do not agree with this opinion. Was this not Hitlers view of domination by the third Reich? Can you imagine NH governor Lynch taking money from a 100% disabled veteran just to give this veteran the time to speak with this elected official? Then the governor never meets. Is not talk the civilized manner to correct the wrongs? Can you imagine the impact on a returning (even today) U.S. Military that this civilized society rejects even if the rejection is unintended but believed by the Veteran. Do we remember Hitlers impact on life.

I went to the seacoast yesterday to kill my self. It was the homeless man under the bridge that I shared my last meal and coffee with. He was a Vietnam Veteran lost in a society that he could not understand. Here was a person with nothing, willing to live homeless because he did not want to burden others with his memories. I gave the man my last five dollars and left. I forgot what I had gone to the seacoast for because of my memory lapse from my head injury TBI. I went to the bank to get money, but when I returned the Veteran was no where to be found. These are the people forgotten and left homeless Good Changes can and do hurt the most.

Why because we became veterans so Hitler could not grow here in the U.S.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Public Causes 5-29-09

Please forward a copy of this letter to Dr Potenza at NH VAH and the newspapers around the US. You should send a copy to all politicians because the righteous ones are not allowed to survive in a communist state

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Concord Monitor censors public opinion letters from their blog. I write in response to a letter about no shows at memorial day parade and it is taken off the blog with no reason given. Granted my subject matter is one that no one wants to talk about but it is here. The paper prints a letter from David which ridicules and denounces U.S. Military Veterans which documents societies hidden agenda with our returning veterans. The newspapers and the public do not want to hear the truth. You have some mystical belief that your child going off to war will do the civilized acts and come home a hero. Truth be it, was is hell! You the public can not conceive that every moral, civilized fiber instilled since child birth is removed by the time you escape boot camp. We, the now veteran go far away and attempt to survive to keep you the people like David safe and free. The unlucky U.S. Military believe coming home alive is the best thing in the world only to realize once back silence and death are the only ways to be accepted. We become this way because the other side (enemy) do not play by your rules. The other side plays to win at all costs because they know returning to their dictators without victory, death will be better. The Concord Monitor as all the other newspapers censor this Veterans letters with the belief it is the right thing to do? Are the two sides (our country or theirs) different?

I have volunteered every day since coming back in seventy four, 100% disabled from the Vietnam Conflict. David as the other righteous do gooders believe we invaded Vietnam and destroyed it. We, the U.S. Military gave because your politicians (most whom never served) sent us to do a job. We lived and survived uncivilized, inhuman conditions to complete our mission only to be hampered by righteous politicians giving the enemy the advantage by restricting us to a civilized manner of war. We come home to be labeled baby killers and alienated from our communities because we are not the promising child that left. I was lucky finding volunteering made me feel whole again as I believed showing honor and respect to those that will never come back by helping other citizens have a better life.Lets talk about the comparison of Vietnam to what NH is doing to a 100% disabled veteran. Judge Peter Fauver is a criminal using the power of the court to dictate that the Madbury NH selectmen can dictate whom is good enough to live in their town. The NH supreme court covered up the case to retain their monopoly of power over the people. Our elected officials are so afraid of the power of the court they violate the law to stop my opinion letters. My freedom is taken as well as my VA medical care. Can you moral, righteous do gooders see the difference between Vietnam and here?

The Concord Monitor as well as every newspaper in the U.S. censor my letters. This U.S. Marine writes and talks about what NH and our State and Federal politicians are doing to me because freedom is what we gave for. The History of the United States of America is made up of those willing to give so you could be free and have equal justice for all. Every newspaper not just the CM must realize the importance of this public cause. Suicide or silence should not be our only way back.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Why People ask 5-27-09

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

A newspaper opinion letter today asked Why people did not attend the Memorial Day parades to say, thank you to the Veterans? I write letters everyday telling of criminal acts by the public and our elected officials against veterans. Where are the people? I wrote a stunning letter yesterday about the American Legion and VFW yet the people do not care. The VA stopped my medical care, no one cares. I write about homeless veterans on the street, or the ones being denied medical care because their records from service to this nation were lost. The newspapers stereo type my opinion as libelous so they are censored even though blogs across the world publish my letters every day. You can Google my name and all my letters will come up. The truth is a powerful weapon, but censorship by editors of the peoples opinion can destroy truth and a nation. Our elected officials would rather waste money replacing sand on beaches for political leverage than spend on a veteran. Suicide among veterans is caused by society not understanding what happens to a child that goes, only to return a U.S. Military veteran with the demented since of survival over correctness. The safe guards built from child birth to boot camp by our upbringing is completely removed by graduation from boot camp. A U.S. Marine is born for the primary purpose to Kill to protect and defend our Constitution. This society trains us, sends us to do a job and when we return prosecution or alienation is bestowed upon us for what we did. The truth is so upsetting that the newspapers censor it to protect the public from knowing the reality of war.

I am 100% disabled from four separate disabilities received during my tour in the USMC. From my head injury no memory of my life prior to my 31 month tour overseas exists. I came back to a nation (with no memory) that would rather spit on me and label me a baby killer rather than listen to my words. I have many times tried to kill my self but the flash in time ended just before it happen. Reality (if it exists) is that I came back to a place that can not accept us for what we became. Guilt ridden for coming back when so many better than I will never, volunteering became my reality. Every day since 74 helping others to try to show respect and honor so what so many have given in defense of the U.S from the beginning will not be in vain.

Volunteering to help a Madbury NH family I came across a judge (Peter Fauver) using court powers to harm local residents. Fauver use court powers to allow the Madbury selectmen to decide which local residents deserved to live in Madbury NH. The NH supreme court believes they are above the law so they refused to hear the case when presented to them. I am put in jail, my medical for combat related disabilities is stopped, and much worse to stop the U.S. citizens from hearing my words. The American Legion from Manchester NH booted me off the club property because Shea-Porter was coming to a picnic open to the public. Shea-Porter used my medical condition to try and harm me.

The Memorial Day parade is not for Veterans. This day is for politicians and the public to tell each other how much they care and are doing for the U.S. Military Veteran. The newspapers across the U.S. will censor this letter because the truth is the hardest thing to believe.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

VFW, American Legion 5-27-09

Send this letter to Dr Potenza of the NH VAH and the VA inspector general.

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Why has the American Legion and VFW alienated me from their veteran organizations? Across the United States people are becoming aware of my letters and asking to read them. Veterans Today Web Magazine has increased their scribers to over 86 thousand and they sometimes print my letters. Veterans Today lists me as a staff writer. I was invited in the beginning to have a web page on Veterans Today so Veterans across the U.S. could read my letters every day. That stopped after a few months and now I am blocked from the site except when notified that my new letter is being published. My letters touch home to so many that hopefully it helps all the people. There are the homeless and forgotten veterans just getting by, because of lack of medical care or understanding. There is the returning veteran even from the conflicts today that will some day lose it because of the silent war in their heads. I silently skated by in life happy and feeling as the luckiest person in the world for what I have. Believing volunteering every day was my reason for existence. Everyone that gave so that the U.S. could be free with equal justice for all my volunteering gave respect and honor so that giving their lives would not be in vain. I never talked with anyone about the memories that tormented me every day. Are the leaders of the American Legion and VFW so afraid of politicians that they would leave a member on the street with no cover because this U.S. Military Veteran dares openly correct the wrongs in government. Will my letters free all veterans to be understood and cared for?

Judge Peter Fauver is a criminal that violated the Constitution and law to intentionally harm other U.S. citizens. Fauver allowed with the power of the court the Madbury selectmen to drive local residents out of town that they did not like. The NH supreme court covered up the case presented and documented with facts. The NH supreme court covered up the case to protect their monopoly on power. I volunteer to help this family even though I am from a different town and did not know them. NH takes my freedom, family and friends and medical care to scare me, to stop me. I am a United States Marine and I believe in the Corps and the United States of America that I will give everything to keep her safe and free. I told Judge Fauver this in open court.

We have become such a politically correct country that the people are no longer a prime concern. The American Legion and VFW which are organizations made up of Veterans has become obsolete. Members show power but are an asset only to influence the political parties by numbers of members only for leadership influence. The American Legion and VFW raise money not to help other veterans in need. The money raised is to help children with college money or disabilities. It is used to party and the travel of leadership. Veterans are as with the politicians only helped when it can be to the advantage of the help-e.

Do you know why I can write a letter like this. I am a Sgt in the United States Marine Corps. I spoke honest with my men no matter what the outcome. I will speak honest with the people of New Hampshire and the United States of America because the consequences for not doing so can end this nation. Readers of my letters far exceed the Veterans Today numbers. The Politicians may not see me coming but I will be there.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

State of a Nation 5-26-09

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

I am a fifty seven year old person. Why do the memories of my days as a child in the Marine Corps never leave me? Why do I talk and no one hears me? Like yesterday many people that never responded to my opinion letters before responded to my Memorial day letter. Yet the editors and elected officials refuse to acknowledge that I even exist. Many, many people read my letters every day yet do they hear what I am saying? Can this be real? I am 100% disabled from my time in the MC. I am the luckiest person alive because I came back. I came back with no memory from a traumatic brain injury. I build and learned everything in my life since wakening up in a Military Hospital. The MC shipped me overseas with no memory at all. I did a thirty one month tour in and out of combat situations learning as I went. I kill before I remember kissing my first round eyed girl. I came back and learned to volunteer every day because I needed to give because many better men than I will never return, given their lives for your freedom. I came back with three more disabilities from separate missions only to have the VA stop my medical care to stop my opinion letters. The checks and balances in our system fail when elected officials control the power, yet no one hears me!

People tell me that in a civilized society people talk out their problems rather than use violence. Yet our elected officials charge me money to talk, they never talk to me! I ran for NH state senate this past election only to scare those in power so the election was fixed. Do I exist or am I still in that benjo ditch from long ago? I write about returning veterans being left out in the street because of failures in our system. No one hears my words but they do listens to them. The NH Supreme Court refused to hear a case presented to them by me that detailed and documented the criminal violations of our Laws and Constitution by judge Peter Fauver to intentionally harm U.S. citizens. Placing the facts in letters, by me made public so many times yet no one hears my words. My letters tell the people that a judge is a criminal getting away with crimes against the people would be criminal if not true. People cry about the state of the economy but no one hears the words documenting the criminal acts of the leaders spending the money.

I live in two worlds but does anyone hear my questions of reality. I many times have come back to realize death is near as the demons of my conflict, flash in my mind. Months ago I jumped off a cliff fully aware, with out the demons only to have the wind lift me to the top of a birch tree that safely lowered me to the ground. The scare on my upper leg has faded as the memory will soon.

I am a 17 year old U.S. Marine on convoy as an American Advisor deep in the bush. I crash land in a c-117 or catch a fighter jet doing 600 hundred knots with a tail hook. I am blown off a runway only to get up in time to catch the next pilot in need. Enemy mortar blows the out house that I just left and a sniper bullet passes with in inches of my head. These memories never leave can the people hear your child when they return from.

You the people back here can not see what is in a Veterans head but trying maybe you can hear. We gave to protect and defend our Constitution so that freedom existed and equal justice for all would continue. Save the nation by hearing the people.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Veteran response Memorial Day 5-25-09

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

A day to remember those that gave their lives over the history of this nation as members of the U.S. Military in a war or conflict. Joe McQuaid writes a great editorial thanking those of the Salvation Army for their volunteer hours. What was Joe thinking? This lost perspective can be seen in all newspapers ethics these days not just the UL. The papers no longer want to inform the voters of what the people want and need to know. The editors believe (and it is true) that they are a private business and they can do as they wish. The near sighted might see it this way but in a free society it is the consumers that make the ultimate choice. I am a strong believer in volunteering. I have volunteered every single day since seventy four when I returned from a conflict. Memorial Day has become a day to celebrate and party without thinking of those that will never come home. It is as our society has become complacent with their responsibility to protect and defend our constitution. The U.S. society would rather let someone else stick their necks out verses risk anything themselves. Our children join the U.S. Military go off to fight and some come home to be called Veterans. You can not become a U.S. Military Veteran by joining the Salvation army.

The UL as all the newspapers in NH refuse to print my letters. I am a 100% disabled veteran. I regret every day that I came back alive. I have as many other veterans that returned tried to commit suicide many times. It is not what NH and the rest of the U.S. has done to me (as well done to many other veterans). The fact is that explaining even to the VA the ramifications of living in two worlds never ends. The belief that silence is necessary to protect the innocent society from dead reality is a myth. Silence of the demons is necessary because society can not grasp the reality of what we did. You label us baby killers yet you were unwilling to go. You lose our medical records so you can reject us from medical care for disabilities received defending your rights. You stop our medical care to stop us from writing opinion letters that the newspaper will censor anyway. Society is so complacent, the blind eye believes Memorial Day is for the veteran when it is so that society can rationalize their lack of understanding.

Memorial Day is to remember what they died for. If the newspapers refuse to print opinion letters that document Judge Peter Fauver criminally violating the constitution to harm other U.S. citizens. Fauver allowed the Madbury NH selectmen to use government powers to drive local residents out of town because the selectmen did not like these people. This is as bad as the UL writing articles adjusting the truth to sway the voters choice against me when I ran this past election for NH state senate. All the newspapers refused to print my opinion letters explaining my platform to inform the voters. The election was fixed. The editors believe that censoring my letters will silence this U.S. Marine. My letters are printed on blogs and goggles every day around the world. What Joe McQuaid did to the memory of Memorial day is as repulsive as the citizens of the U.S. shaming every U.S. Military Veteran by allowing so few to diminish what so many over the history of the United States of America gave their lives for. Respect and honor what these heros gave their lives for that is Thank You enough.

Our Constitution.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Send a copy to letters@unionleader.com plus a copy to Dr Dan Potenza at NH VAH

Memorial Day Veteran 5-23-09

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

My opinion is carried on more blogs across the U.S. yet editors across the U.S. censor these letters. More people read my letters than most newspapers have scribers. The Fact is that my letters only contain true facts exposing criminal acts in government. People are to afraid to speak up for fear of government retaliation if associated with my name. No one cares that the government department created to help veterans has criminally violated the law to stop my opinion. The Concord Monitor just blocked my letters from their blog. Someone on the NH Craigs list flaggs my opinion everyday. The newspapers went so far this past election to censor my opinion to stop my possible election to state office. These same newspapers had no trouble writing damming letters adjusting the truth to make my character appear bad. What do we send our U.S. Military to fight on foreign soil for if there is nothing back here to fight for. The Veterans Today blog censors most of my letters. Does any one care about the truth any more?

Memorial Day is to celebrate the dead that gave for our freedom. Memorial Day is where politicians take credit for proclaiming to help veterans only to finger us when the cameras stop rolling. No body wants to tell the NH supreme court that covering up criminal miss use of the constitution by Judge Peter Fauver can not be allowed. Fauver allowed the Madbury NH selectmen to use government powers for retaliation against local residents that the selectmen wanted out of Madbury. I volunteer my time to help this family and the courts and government come down on me to protect their monopoly on legal power. Can anything be more wrong than violating our Constitution for protecting the Dominance of power by the judicial branch of government? Can anything be more shameful to the Citizens we honor on Memorial Day than to see what they gave their lives for be diminished? Does not the writers of the Constitution describe the importance of the peoples opinion as one of the factors that Keeps America for the people.

I have four permanent disabilities from my time in the U.S.M.C. Three are Combat related. I to this day remember nothing of growing up before the Marine Corps from my head injury. I came back from the Vietnam Conflict with no memory of family, friends or the U.S. I have survived a lot of events in and out of combat situations than most of you could even conceive. The one part of my life that makes me the proudest is I did it as a United States Marine for the people that I respect and honor. I have not and will not violate the law or be violent. Our NH elected officials have charged me money to speak with them, yet they refuse to talk to me. My VA medical was stopped. In a civilized society people talk to correct the problems. Why will no one talk?

Ask if I paid to speak with the governor and elected officials, take a case to the NH supreme court, continues to put in writing by way of Opinion letters, why have I been ignored. Our newly elected officials like Amanda Merrill turned a deaf ear when elected. Shea-Porter uses here government power to harm me. Can the people survive?

This is Memorial Day and respecting and remembering what each hero gave their lives for as U.S. Military is more important than celebrating so politicians can get credit that they do not deserve.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Baby killers Free 5-22-09

Send a copy of this letter to Dr Dan Potenza NH VAH please

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

The United States of America is our nation. We the people must protect and take care of our rights. To allow any one individual to be harmed by any government official or law can not be allowed to happen. Our elected officials refuse to discuss the situation. The Newspapers censor the truth. The federal government stopped my VA medical for combat related disabilities to stop my opinion letters. The truth is that no one cares unless the situation is effecting your family. My opinion letter yesterday was about my vision of the Vietnam conflict that I lived through. Yes I have serious health and mental disabilities received while doing my duty as a U.S. Marine. I live in constant pain and in and out of delusional states of mind. If that is what you want to label my two worlds as? To accept that I do not belong is all in my head. How do you chose between being proud of sticking a bayonet in a child to get your M-16 back and escape, to living in a civilized society that has determined you to be a baby killer. The truth is the waving of the flags on holidays and the talk of how to help our U.S. Military come back is delusional. Society can not accept that we are no longer the child that left. Society can not under stand or even wants to understand what is in our head. Can you accept the facts of life starting at 17 as a U.S. Marine because of a head injury taking your memory. The world of a 17 year old living in and out of a conflict never knowing what it is like back here in the U.S. Writing letters to family members and friends whom you do not know but they know you. Feelings of joy stepping off the plane in the U.S. for the first time. Proud of a ladies words baby killer as she welcomes you home because you have no memory of what the U.S. is! We give our childhood so that you can be Free and feel Safe.

Volunteering to help others every day since I came back is my way of respecting those that will never come back from the many wars and conflicts. I have asked the NH governor to talk with me. He even granted my request if I paid him. I did pay but we never talked. Talking is a civilized societies desired way of solving problems. NH U.S. Rep Shea-Porter does not talk. She files false police complaints to get this disabled veteran to stop writing opinion letters. She uses federal powers to have doctors lock me up. Then my VA medical is stopped. Is this the United States of America?

If I falsely in public tell the U.S. that Judge Peter Fauver is a criminal because he knowingly used the power of the court to discriminate and harm other U.S. citizens falsely then I would be arrested and they could stop me. They do not because the truth will come out if they even talk with me publicly. The NH supreme court refuse to hear the case when it was presented to them. A cover up by the people (Supreme Court) whom have the sole job of protecting our constitution rights from being violated by government officials. The newspapers whom were given constitutional protection not for themselves but so the truth could be free exchanged censors my letters. The news censors the facts going against everything the United States of America stands for.

My wife last night told me that my memory of what I have done happen a long time ago and I have never mentioned it until the Madbury case. I was silent until now but it has been with me every second of every day since coming back. The United States is our nation and if my talk will bring her back lets talk and be as a civilized society does?

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

PS A phone call from the NC VA just called me to tell me that they would have nothing to do with my letter. The VA was created to serve the U.S. Military Veteran. Any VA government worker that will disregard a 100% disabled Veteran that is straight out calling the VA for miss use and criminal violation of the Veteran’s rights must be fired (dismissed) immediately.

Memorial Day 5-21-09 Send a copy to Dr Dan Potenza NH VAH

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03024 603-659-6217

Is life real? I read in the paper today about a new Play called Letters. The description highlights how people will get the feeling of the U.S. Military writing these letters. The lonely ness, separation, complacency with life and death as a daily ingrown part of our permanent mental image of where we are. Erasing the memories that haunt you in untimely, daily flashes at the most inconvenient moment. The conflict of what we did! To the unacceptable description from the people that have never been there qualifying our actions as despicable and uncivilized. Our youthful development of the desire to give to a nation that we call home through deplorable, inconceivable conditions and events that society can not believe ever could or did happen. The need and want to come back to a world “nation” that can not and will not accept us for what we did. A nation that we gave everything for that we no longer belong. We lose our families, friends, jobs, place in society to become that loser that at one time had great potential. The homeless bum on the street (U.S. Military Veteran) accepts that keeping what we did, must be silenced to protect this innocent society from learning what they will never be able to accept. Can all this be real.

The funny thing is that I learned to write as a way to learn how to accept that I had no memory from a car accident right out of Parris Island. I left on a thirty one month tour over seas with no memory at all of life back here. I learned to write to keep in touch with people that I had no memory of ever seeing before never mind family that I lived with or girls that I dated. The NH government put me in jail to stop my writing opinion letters under the Patriot Act. I have three more combat related disabilities from separate missions only to have the freedom that we gave for be publicly taken way. Society questions my mental state but accepts the criminal acts committed by our judicial and government personal to stop my letters. I question reality in most of my letters because to identify what is real has plagued me since waking up in a military uniform at 17 to kill the enemy only because? I accepted the deplorable condition and daily experiences with only to hope to one day see the nation other Marines talked about while waiting to die. Writing has become my way of silently telling society what is real only to find that reality does not exist in my world. Funny thing is that my letters are censored to keep society from learning the criminal acts of the people we trust.

I want to talk about all the other Veterans that this civilized society can not accept. The veteran returning today or the many of past, lost in a world that those that never served call home. A place that our reality, you can not perceive because it makes no since to others. The VA stopped my medical care and I write about it. It is the thousands of others that do not write that my case should highlight. These are the neglected, forgotten Veteran society believe that a play or a parade will bring us back. You say welcome with open arms only to watch our politicians turn their faces away if we ask.

Reality is that we should never have come back. The smart ones will always see the reality of war in their final memory. Those lucky enough to come back will use suicide to be accepted in a place that can not accept us. I have tried suicide only to be sent back to a society to learn to accept reality before my mission is complete.

We give to protect and defend our Constriction. Can you see my reality?

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Shea-Porter, Why respond 5-20-09

Send a copy to Dr Dan Potenza at the NH VAH and the VA inspector general

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Shea-Porter is a politician working for the NH Residents and the U.S. Can any one tell me why the newspapers print her articles and refuse to print responses when they tell the truth. Shea-Porter used her political influence to interferer with my service connected, combat related medical disabilities. I was injured four times while I served in the U.S. Marine Corps, three during separate offensives fighting for you the American people. Shea-Porter never served a day in her life for the U.S. Military. She will boost about how here husbands service makes her so well qualified in the subject. Shea-Porter boosts about ethics yet hers are so well camouflaged even a rat would have a hard time seeing. The newspapers treat her as if she is a spiritual awakening or something. The news is one sided to benefit her. Lets talk about how she can use a false police complaint to get me arrested, yet nothing is done when the complaint is proved to be false. Dover police complaint 7002-42. What has become of the U.S. ethics for the people.

Shea-Porter filed a false complaint with the VA using my medical condition to attempt to have me put in a nut house to stop my opinion letters. Here is a politician claiming to the U.S. people that she works for the veteran, yet the newspapers refuse to print a response. I served as a U.S. Marine. Yet the newspapers censor my words because they question the ethics of their princess. The VA then stops my medical care completely to help NH and Shea-Porter on their quest to stop my opinion letters. The VA after many, many months restarted my medical care but with an armed guard even in the examining room at all times. Now the VA gives me medical care and medication as long as I pay for it. They do have a VA psychologist Dr Dan Potenza whom is a very caring and professional doctor and I trust and like this person. The VA has used this person to build a bond with me so they can fix the books to demonstrate medical care is given. Dr Dan calls all the time yet I never answer the phone. I am caught between the need to understand where I am and the Need to Die for what I did for the United States of America.. We understand what Shea-Porter wants, but what about what she is?

People tell me they are tired of hearing about my questioning the criminal acts of judge Peter Fauver. The NH supreme court went so far as to cover up these criminal acts committed by Fauver. Fauver Miss Used the power of the court to inflict discrimination and many more crimes to harm a Madbury NH family. Everyone believes you must trust and support the courts. I believe in the U.S. and I believe it is my duty to stand up for the U.S. citizens rights no matter what. Should Shea-Porter be allowed to use the power of government it inflict pain and suffering on a 100% disabled veteran and the Newspapers censor the truth from the citizens this voucher represents. My words are kept silent because this U.S. Marine came back to a nation that he does not belong. I was trying to stop writing because my end is needed. Shea-Porter was published in many newspapers telling the people of her ethics. Her letter made me sick. You can censor my response but the people will hear because the rights of the people must come before this political princess. Even the VFW and American Legion place political image about this veteran right to live. Powerful words but the truth will stand for ever.

The truth is a powerful weapon but it can also be a very dangerous virus if hidden.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi