Depressed Veteran over election 9-11-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

The VA Dr. Dan Potenza called me on Sept 10 to congratulate me on receiving 17% of the vote for NH state Senate. This was nice of Dan to feel for a friend enough to call before his work day even started. I have no emotions or feeling for losing the election. You don’t congratulate someone for being massacred. I told Dan that I was proud just to have participated in the election. We did not talk long because I was in such serious pain in my head and my back. I just wanted to lay on the couch. Which I attempted to do all day. By nine o’clock the phone started ringing. The VA suicide hotline was calling me to just talk. I hung up. I just start to fall asleep and the phone rings again. It is the suicide hotline again. Do they see a chance to force me to commit suicide because of pressure. It does not work. In the Marine Corps I learned to set pain and pressure aside to complete my mission. Oh don’t get me wrong, later on the pain and confusion is much worse, then and now. I just knew that the local police would be knocking at my door soon because after receiving so many calls from the VA Suicide hotline and hanging up, it is the next step in the VA’s attempt to pressure me into suicide. I decided to go for a walk.

Trust me it was not easy. A song played on the radio on my way to Durham that brought me back to memories that no one should remember. My legs were tingling as I exited the car. The sharp pain in my back brought me to my knees as I took my first step. I just floated down the side walk like in a daze walking on pillows as people looked at me. Soon I was deep in the “Bush” lost. Tall trees with thick brush made movement difficult. I had lost my M-16 and had no gear. I came to the waters edge and there was no crossing. I could see buildings on the other side in a distance. Maybe I could approach and get a weapon, supplies and location. I had to build a way across the flowing water first. I searched the area and dragged damaged branches and logs to build a crossing. Soon on the other side I climbed the hill through the thick pickers and growth until I realized the building were the UNH gym and the tall white tips sticking through to horizon of the bushes were the UNH Foot Ball goal posts. How or why I got into the UNH woods has no logic. I looked down and my legs were all bloody and my cloths covered with dirt, pickers and leaves. The reality is that I remember the mission as if it was yesterday but it has been over thirty years since I was on my last convoy as an American Advisor.

I lost the election because I came back to a place that I do not belong. As a prominent citizen explained to me yesterday in Durham earlier “returning Veterans have a demented since of reality so we do not belong in an elected positions”. The newspapers believe that I am such a terror they refuse to print my letters. The VA stops my medical care for combat related injuries. The courts are corrupt and I have no place left.

I hate to inform you but if some one wants to die, when it is time there is no way to stop them. I wish that I knew then as I realize now that a body bag was the way for all veterans to return to a nation that just can not understand.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Response to Elections 9-10-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

The Constitution is a document that we all should be proud of and look up too. We have a government that we the people choose by vote. I am proud to have the chance to run for elected office. My views and opinion’s were completely stopped by the newspapers, but that is what makes a free society. Private businesses being allowed to print what they want. The Union Leader did three quarters of an article about my opponent’s good and one small paragraph on my bad. The Fosters’ newspaper called me up moments before their article was printed. The reporter hung up on me in med sentence of my talking then wrote that I hung up. They did several great articles on my opponent over the summer. I have sent opinion letters every day to every NH newspaper about my views, goals and platform and not one would print any of my letters. Freedom and our Constitution is so great that our informed vote is what makes the U.S. eyed by the people of other countries.

I have volunteered so much helping other people ever day (for over 30 years) it makes no difference if I was elected to a $100.00a year job. I am proud to have the chance to run. The people made an informed choice. Amanda is a choice of the news media and I have to agree she is a nice person.

Freedom of the press was so important to our fore fathers that the Constitution contains articles protecting newspapers. We the U.S. military veteran’s gave our childhood to defend and protect it. You the 89% that never served frequently disregard other’s rights when it is to the special class‘s advantage.

I heard a person today tell me (as he was consoling me on my loss) that the people that served in our military come back with a demented since of reality and we should not hold public office any way. The person (that never served) said that Presidential candidate John McCain is the same way. The news media had very little good to say about McCain until his VP was picked (whom never served). A few years ago the news media destroyed John Kerry for his service to this nation.

The NH government, courts, law enforcement and newspapers violated so many Constitutional rights of the individual to stop me. The VA went so far as to stop my medical care. When a newspaper (Boston Globe) can in writing ask some one to commit suicide before writing another opinion letter and the media’s ethical responsibility is ignored by all is this protected by our Constitution also.

I am proud of my service to the United States of America. I am proud to have had the chance to protect and defend our Constitution. I am proud to (under the guide lines of this great document (the Constitution) to have had the chance to run for public office.

I thank the United States of America for allowing me to come back alive. I know Veterans returning from a conflict presents a hardship on you, So accept my apology.

Thank You American

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

What is Left-all hope lost 9-9-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls Rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

When all fails is there any hope left. I saw Dr Dan yesterday and he showed me how many Veterans Administration officials read and send him each of my letters. How can so many be aware of the crimes of discrimination and many other crimes inflicted on a disabled veteran and no one cares. My file has been Red Flagged to harass me, so it is assumed that I am dangerous. When I came back over thirty years ago from a conflict I swore that I would never raise a hand toward fellow U.S. citizen. I have not. I have knowingly allowed others the hit me and I still refused. I will fight for what is right but I will not be violent. I every day go out of my way to volunteer to help others. The VA stopped my medical care to harass me. I am 100% service connected disabled. Three of my four disabilities are combat related. My file shows that my medical has been restated but the care is limited. I came back from a conflict with no memory of being in the U.S. before (TBI). I took classes in the Marine Corps on writing letters so that I could communicate (with people that called them my family but were strangers to me) during my 31 months overseas.

I am running for NH state senate yet the newspapers purposely discredit my character in the public eye. I have publicly stated, Judge Peter Fauver criminally violated the Constitution to harm U.S. citizens. My words ring loud and clear but no one wants to hear me. The NH supreme court covered up the crimes presented to them. Elected officials criminally harm me because I volunteer to help a Madbury family that Fauver used the power of the court to criminally harm. The Madbury selectmen did not like this family so they used the trusted power of government to seek revenge on, for personal reasons. Judge Fauver knowingly approved these crimes. Lawyers and the court refused to help this family so they were so desperate that they asked me because they read a letter to the editor that I wrote. I learned in the Marine Corps to help brother U.S. citizens when government officials commit wrongs to harm others, so I volunteered. The facts in this case are documented and uncontested yet no one cares. The newspapers have criminally violated the trust of the American people by refusing to tell the truth. The newspapers have ethically violated the trust of the American people by refusing to print my opinion letters. The newspapers have criminally violated the Constitution by purposely printing knowingly biased articles to aid one candidate over another.

Crimes by the VA go beyond reality but no one cares. The director of the Manchester NH VA administration told me in person to commit suicide. The state police come to my home to inform me governor Lynch would prefer my suicide. The Boston Globe puts it in writing asking me to commit suicide. The facts are clearly documented but no one cares. I can write great letters but I have a memory problem. I walk 3-6 miles a day but sometimes they take longer than they should. When I feel like my world is falling apart I slip behind a dumpster, under a porch or maybe into the woods so others will not witness my event. Any where’s from a few minutes to hours later I will come back sweating some times when the temperature is less that 30degrees (only to where). I look around for the enemy “gooks”. Nothing is clear, where am I. I walk trying to understand what country I am in. At some point I recognize a street or building and the scared U.S. Marine becomes a grown up living back in the U.S. I have done this for over thirty years since I came back. I have gone out of my way to keep my medical condition from the public eye. I have a broken back, so how do I walk. I live with the pain because to do less would mean to live with out doing any thing. I broke my back during a Vietnam offensive while trying to get one of my men out of harms way. I can only hear certain frequencies so I miss a lot of what others tell me. I lost my hearing being blown off a runway during another Vietnam offensive. A few years ago the VA diagnosed me with PTSD because I finally told others about my continuous visions of what I did as a U.S. Marine. Does the VA director, NH governor, Boston Globe and others not thing that I want to die. I have set out many times to do just that. Even today I hear other citizens talking about how what “we” as U.S. Military do is in-moral. The question exists in my mind that I should feel guilty or ashamed for my actions but I do not. People talk about how it is wrong to harm another human being but I have killed with out emotion or feelings. Are the conflicts in my mind justified? Did! I will my self back to the U.S. but I am really still lying in a ditch deep in the “Bush” dead? Is my suicide justified or just the wish of the people in charge? Can a dead person die again?

NH to stop my volunteer help for this Madbury family a few years ago declared me a terrorist and put me in jail. The reality of American Advisor on a convoy where the enemy captured me. A scared 17 year old Marine adjusted and understood the situation was normal and every Marine goes thorough this. (I had no memory to justify different) My hands were tied behind my back and I was placed beside a camp fire deep in the “bush”. Two sat around and laughed and hit me while drinking rice wine, the other walked the perimeter. When the two fell asleep I freed my hands took my bayonet and left. I encountered the other a few seconds later in the dark. Realizing when I pulled my bayonet out this enemy was a lot younger than me. Proud, successful and scared this Marine took my M-16 back, then ran to the friendly village where the convoy had stopped for the night. With no memory of what is real I actually believed that this was normal. NH dropped the bogus charges but the loss of my freedom for 6 months finally brought out my life is not reality.

I have done everything possible every day for over thirty years since I came back to a place that I do not belong, to help others and make the U.S. a better place. I do not want or will I accept your pity. I want the U.S. to realize that Veteran’s have defended the U.S. but it is all our jobs to see that no one right of any one individual is taken by the wrongs committed by the government. You all speak great words but few if any will take any action unless it is for your own profit. Where does a 100% service connected disabled Veteran go when it is the Veteran’s Administration and government knowingly committing crimes to cause a suicide. You have no idea how close I come every day to granting the government’s wish, not for them but for you, because I care about the U.S.

Does reality really exist or did I come back to a place that I do not belong?

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Reality or Dream 9-8-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Elections are tomorrow yet why? No one seems to live by the rules of the Constitution. Have all means of redress of grievances failed? Is it not the people’s right to take up arms against those in power when these leaders violate even one guaranteed right of the individual? I woke up one day in a military hospital with no memory of any part of my life and to this day, my memory has not returned. I spent the next 31 months over seas fighting for a country that I had no memory of. I was 17, and a United States Marine. Can you imagine killing someone before you remember kissing your first U.S. girl. I have described so many times, the putrid living conditions and insane uncivilized acts that our military live and do to defend this nation. Can you imagine coming back to a nation where killing and mayhem are against the law, yet that is all you know. I had, no more superiors to obey and no men to lead. The rules in a civilized society did not make since. I went to college and started volunteering to just try to survive in a country that I dreamed of living long enough to just visit once before I died. My head injury left me with memory problems which created even more problems socializing and interacting with others. My hearing injury from being blown of the runway made it so that hearing and grasping more than a few words out of a sentence difficult. My back pain from my injury received during another Vietnam offensive made even letting a girl touch my back (for fear of exposing my pain) (which Marine’s never do) difficult. I had been instructed so many times that we (meaning returning military) do not talk about what we did over seas that I learned to seek silence as my memories as a Marine would now flash terrifying events in to the reality of my daily life. Did I at 17, defend a nation where every individual by law has the equal right to elected office.

The newspapers censor my opinion letters. Judge Fauver Violated the Constitution 29 times to allow the Madbury NH selectmen to use government powers to seek personal revenge on local Madbury residents. NH declares me a terrorist and takes my freedom because I volunteer to help this Madbury family The NH Supreme Court refused to hear a case that I spelled out Judge Fauver’s crimes so even a 1^st grader would see. The newspapers tell the public that my letters are threatening and takes words out of context to prove it but refuses to print the entire letter. My letters state truths and facts and do not threaten any one. U.S. NH Rep Shea-Porter files a false police report to get me arrested to stop my letter. When this fails she has a VA Dr Biswas file involuntary commitment orders to stop my letter. When this fails the VA stops my medical care. So much has happen and the courts and government do not follow the Constitution, that I decide to run for public office. The newspapers print great articles about the person running against me but scares the public with false facts about me. I write letters stating my opinion, views, goals and platform yet the newspapers refuse to print my opinion letters.

Over time I have learned when my medical condition is going to take over my life. I learned to be alone until reality returns. I have learned to cover the pain but do admit every once in awhile a squeak escapes in the public arena. I volunteer every day to help others because I owe those (friends, U.S. military personal) better that me that gave their lives for the country that I dreamed to one day see.

But why? This nation and my life would have been better if I had come home in a body bag. My medical care was restarted but it is now only for the record to demonstrate for the public that this Veteran receives care. Every thing is so confusing. The VA publicly starts programs to prevent returning veteran’s from committing suicide. The Director of the NH VA tells me to commit suicide. The VA suicide hotline hounds me to pressure me into suicide. The VA uses the local police to embarrass my family to provoke my suicide. The Boston Globe in writing tells me to commit suicide. NH governor Lynch sends the NH State Police to my home to inform me that the governor would prefer my suicide. Judge Fauver uses the local sheriff to arrest me to seek my suicide. Does the U.S. want Veterans to commit suicide just not publicly. Is the courts and government officials allowed to us government powers for retaliation. Why did our fore fathers put in the constitution the importance of the peoples’ opinion. Does Freedom of the Press only to allow editors unlimited powers to control public information. Why have the American’s with Disabilities Act if government officials can use it to discriminate against 100% service connected disabled Veterans they want to silence.

Not breaking the law. Not following the procedures set by our greatest law the Constitution. Not volunteering to help others continuously and with out regrets. Just do not make sense. Why I had to come back. My head pain has gotten to the point where suicide does make sense because nothing else does. I volunteer every day even when the pain in my left hand was so bad that using it was impossible. I bend down to pick trash up on the side of the road even though my broke back tells me not to. No matter what the effect or pain I have to show respect for what so many over the history of this nation gave their lives for. People tell me to give up. If giving up is why so many children give their lives to defend the freedom 89 percent of you enjoy, just tell me why

Election are so the voters have a choice. That no longer exists in the United States of America. Am I really back in the country that I dreamed of one day just seeing once.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper

Voters Choice. 9-7-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Drinking yesterday was the first time this did not help with the pain in my head. I started at three o’clock in the afternoon because of the pain. This head pain is from one of my service connected disabilities, I am rated 100%. My medical care was stopped for five months because of the newspapers hero to Veterans (U.S. NH Rep Shea-Porter). I believe it was her because it happen after she filed a false police report to stop one of my letters to the editor. When my arrest failed she used her federal government powers to have a VA Dr Biswas file involuntary commitment orders to lock me up. Right after all this my VA medical was stopped. Does one and one equal Two? My medical was restarted but it is now limited and sub-standard. The VA in my opinion assigned a Psychologist Dr Dan Potenza to see me for the purpose to fudge the records for public scrutiny. Don’t get me wrong Dr Dan is in no way a part of this. Dr. Dan in my opinion is a caring individual that gives more than required to help Veterans. Dr Dan goes out of his way. I write a letter every day informing the VA and Federal government of the crimes in the Veterans Office in NH but my case is covered up.

I am running for NH state senate. The Union Leader calls me up two hours before dead line for a interview. I am volunteering in Canterbury NH so I do not get the message they left until I get home three days later. The Foster’s reporter calls me up at their dead line for a interview. I write a letter complaining and four days later the reporter calls me again. We are talking when I tell her about my letters that I send to the paper every day expressing my opinions, views and platform. In the middle of my next sentence she hangs up the phone. Both papers wrote articles discrediting me. The Voters should have a informed choice. “what are we fighting for, next stop is Vietnam”

I volunteer every day to help others. I ask for nothing in return. I refuse when ever someone that I help offers me a gift or money. I received an award once from the Fosters’ for my volunteer work. I volunteer to help a Madbury NH family that Judge Fauver criminally violated the Constitution 29 times to cover up the Madbury selectmen’s use of government power to get revenge on local residents the selectmen did not like. The NH supreme court refused to hear the case because it exposed the NH judicial system to public scrutiny. NH elected officials have criminally violated the Constitution to stop me from helping this Madbury family. I have four (received at separate times) (three combat related) permanent Marine Corps related disabilities. My running for public office is scaring powerful people, the voters are denied the choice. No newspaper will allow my opinion letters or write an article about my views and opinions. I am a dead citizen to the editors.

I have not slept more that a couple hours at a time in years. I wake up seeing the face of the child, that at 17, I killed with a bayonet deep in the bush. I keep seeing his face because I want to care. People every day describe that my emotions for others does not exist, since I came home. I have a limited memory because of my head injury. At the most in appropriate times remember uncivilized acts that I committed during my 31 months on foreign soil fills my head. Emotions and feelings can not exist in a combat situation. Men are sacrificed so that others may live. Defending this nation is knowing that you are going to die. I should have come home in a body bag.

You the people of the State of New Hampshire, with the help of the newspapers make the freedom (all veterans over the history of the United States give you) a joke. How many disabled Veteran’s are swept under the rug because you the people of the United States use us only when it is to your political advantage. I speak openly telling the truth using freedom of the press to allow citizens to correct the wrongs in government, the editors have stopped. I run for public office, I volunteer to help others, I served this nation as a United States Marine and I must rely on drinking to stop the pain in my head. My right hand will become useless at times because of the pain, then it will be fine. My right arm has lost at least 50 percent of it’s use at times then it will be fine. My right leg goes numb, tingles and hurts at times then it is fine.

If all these facts were not so well documented, I might give the editors the benefit of the doubt for not printing the truth. To demonstrate how biased the system is the Veteran’s Administration Director in NH has asked me to commit suicide, the Boston Globe sent me an e-mail asking me to commit suicide, the NH governor sends the NH state police to my home to inform me that governor Lynch would prefer my suicide and judge Fauver uses the local sheriff to pressure me into suicide. These are documented facts the news papers will not tell. Stopping any individual’s right for the people to elect to public office can not be tolerated. I may not be the people’s choice but to allow the government and courts to use my medical condition and freedom to discredit me and to stop the people from learning the truth is beyond belief.

Some thing is wrong, when I can write these letters informing the government, editors and public of these criminal acts to intentionally defraud the people of the United States and no one cares. I accept every bit of this punishment because of what I did as a United States Marine. You the people of the United States of America better take note because it is your child returning from foreign soil today and this will happen to them and no one will care now, either. I wasted other human beings lives to defend you to come home for the people that I believe in, to punish me. I do not have to worry about the voters reading this letters because freedom of the press is an illusion to send our children to foreign soil to die to allow so few to dominate over the majority

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Suicide of a U.S. Veteran and candidate 9-3-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Red, White and Blue the American Flag, a symbol of freedom, Equality of rights. The newspapers today wrote an article on “Dems Merrill, Macdonald seek state senate seat”. The article was unprofessional and Biased.

I registered first, to run back in April. The papers have done several articles on the other candidates, but no articles on me. The reporters called me for an interview moments before deadline for their articles. I was in Canterbury NH volunteering. Why wait until dead line. The article today was distorted truth’s to harm my character in the public eye. I quoted the Constitution “killing when all other means of redress fails”. The article was not threatening or harm full, it was an article about wrongs in NH government.

How do I explain it. The newspapers have all my letters and refuse to print them. I have and will continue to volunteer everyday to help others, friend or foe: it does not matter. This is not mentioned. The editors take words out of context to create deceptive truth. “Biased articles”. U.S. Rep Shea-Porter used her political powers to have a VA Dr Biswas file false involuntary commitment papers to stop my letter to the editor about her. The Dover Hospital after 7 hours and over ten thousand dollars determined the order was with out merit. Now the VA is ordering me to pay for this. Carol then filed a false police complaint to have the Dover police arrest me. After 3 hours under arrest the police determined the letter was just that a letter to the editor that questioned Carols actions. The editors refuse to print that in 1999 I received a phone call from a Madbury NH family that I had never met. Judge Peter Fauver violated or allowed the Madbury NH selectmen to violate the law and constitution 29 or more times to seek revenge for personal reasons against local Madbury residents. The NH supreme court refused to hear a case that spelled out these criminal acts because it would mean criminal charges against a NH judge. NH elected officials to stop me declared under the patriot act that I was a terrorist and took my freedom for 6 months. The bogus charges were dropped but the editors refused to inform the public.

I am a 100% service connected disabled Veteran. Three of my four injuries are combat related. The VA stopped my medical care for political favors. I believe for Carol. The VA director in NH told me to commit suicide. The NH state police come to my house to inform me the governor wishes me to commit suicide. The Boston Globe writes me asking me to commit suicide. The VA suicide Hot Line harasses me to commit suicide. The VA sends the Lee Police to my home to intimidate me to commit suicide. My medical is restored after five months but it is now inferior and sub-standard because the VA red flagged my file to harass me. Why has the news refuse to inform the public?

I dream of suicide every day because I came back to a country that can not accept what we as Veteran’s did for you. I see and hear the little boy that I stuck a bayonet in deep in the bush to get my M-16 back and escape every day. I am not a shamed of the cruel and inhuman acts that I committed as a U.S. Marine. You sent a 17 year old boy to become a U.S. Marine, live like a pig, to seek and destroy others for your benefit. The only way to survive is to have no feelings or emotions. We come back and the 89% that never served question our actions and lack of emotions. You continue to remind us that what we did was uncivilized. I am ashamed, to this day that I have no feelings or emotions for what I did. Today’s veterans are receiving the same cruel treatment as past veterans did from the American public.

Equity of Rights and Freedom are no longer a quality of the nation that Veterans gave their lives for. I should never have come home to a nation that enjoys what we defended for you but treats veterans as second class citizens. The Red, White and Blue Flag should have been placed on my coffin years ago. I am running for elected office to help correct the wrongs in government. The newspapers would rather destroy this Veteran than recognize what the Red, White and Blue of the American Flag symbolizes. The American Public by all Constitutional Rights deserve to hear the words of a 100% disabled Veteran running for elected office whether the editors approve them or not.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Candidate NH State Senate 9-2-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

What gain do the Editors and Government get out of stopping the voters from hearing this candidate’s words? I am a 100% service connected disabled Veteran. Three of my four injures are combat related. The Union Leader calls me up hours before their dead line to interview Me. I am not home. The Foster’s newspaper did the same just the other day. I have been on the ballot for months why the last minute. They do not need to interview me, my letters which I write every day give the voters enough information of my views, opinion, and goals. My words are across the internet. Ask why the news has kept the voters from my words. Ask if the editors and government officials have turned the Constitution against the people. Whom is here to serve and protect who?

Free Speech is just that, a person’s right to openly express the wrongs in government that they have witnessed. My words may not be easy to accept but they are the truth. I have not violate the law but the editors and government officials have violated the Constitution to silence my words. I volunteered my time to help a Madbury NH family who read my letter in the paper on zoning issues. Judge Peter Fauver and the Madbury selectmen violated the constitution at least 29 times “criminally” to harm this family. The NH supreme court refuse to hear this case because it exposed a judge to criminal prosecution. Our elected officials saw the people’s power being restored so they declared me a terrorist under the Patriot act to stop me. Four days before the trial the charges were dropped. NH Congress woman Shea-Porter used her federal powers to have a VA Dr Biswas file involuntary commitment papers to stop my letters. She then filed false police reports to get the Dover Police to arrest me. The Director of the Veterans Administration then stopped my VA medical to silence me. I have four serous permanent disabling injuries and they took my medical care away. The facts are all clearly documented in every aspect of this letter. The truth does not matter to the editors. Why would the editors and government commit such wrongs to destroy our country.

The VA director, Boston Globe newspaper and NH governor Lynch have asked me to commit suicide. This is documented. The newspapers refuse to inform the people. I have not stopped my helping this Madbury family because I am a United States Marine that witnessed other American military personal giving their lives for our Constitution. I killed other human beings in the line of duty for you. I lived and acted as an uncivilized pig on foreign soil day and night for years to protect and serve your rights. This is why no matter what criminal acts these judges, government officials or editors do to me I will stand TALL, PROUD AND DECIDATED to the United States of America

Ask the editors and others why my candidacy has been censored. Do the voters deserve to hear the truth or just what the editors and government officials want you too.

My run for NH state senate or taking my own life is not suicide it is a symbol as god took his own life, on a cross as a symbol to show people the joy of giving to make life better for all others. God showed us that freedom was not free and gave us the knowledge, tools and weapons to make the world a better place for future generations. God and the Constitution made us all equal by giving us the right to vote. Don’t let the Editors and government officials take what so many of our military gave their lives to protect. A free election is just that, where all the candidates get equal treatment.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi.

VA ignores veteran’s complaints 8-31-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 602-659-6217

The Veteran’s inspector general ignores a disabled Veteran’s complaints of illegal acts committed by VA personal to harm said veteran. The last step was the VA complaint line calling me yesterday to tell me the VA did not want to hear from me any more. The VA suicide hotline harasses me to get me to commit suicide, The VA sends the local police to my home to pressure me into suicide. The director at 275 Chestnut St. Manchester NH VA office tells me to commit suicide. A NH congress woman uses her federal powers to have a VA Dr Biswas file involuntary commitment orders against me. The VA stops my medical care completely for 5 months. It is restarted again but it is now inferior and limited. I am red flagged at the VA. I now see Dr Dan Potenza ( whom is a great person and cares) but he is a psychologist that the VA’s uses to show I am getting care. Every one of these facts is documented in government records. The nation that I learned to love has cast me away. I am 100% disabled with four service connected injuries. Three are combat related.

Is it because I see the conflicts clearly in my head that may be there is nothing wrong with me. I went to a family party yesterday. Before we got to the party my wife told me the people’s names. Everyone there knew me and had grown up with me. I did not remember but a few faces. These were my nieces, nephews and friends from school. Try living every day of your life with no (or limited) memory. I can function as what appears as a normal person. My twin brother (whom committed suicide) ex-wife was there with her new husband. It was her daughter’s (my niece‘s) birthday. I did not realize the situation until after talking with them for over an hour. I knew a conflict existed but I had no emotion that these individual’s expected. Do I belong back here? Should I have come back? I can except that I do not know. I camouflage my ignorance from others. I have clear memories of what I did as a U.S. Marine. The lack of emotions and feelings for other human life. The morbid living conditions you survive through just to successfully complete the mission. The belief that I learned that now as a returning U.S. military Veteran coming home to make a life is dismissed by criminal acts by VA and government personal. Did I really kill other human life to be rejected by even the VA?

The pain in my head, back and body from my other injuries cripples me. I learned it was every citizens obligation to expose wrongs in government. I volunteer my time because people from a different town that only knew me from my letters to the editor asked me for help. Judge Fauver criminally violated the law and constitution to protect the Madbury NH selectmen using government powers to seek personal revenge against Madbury residents that the selectmen did not want in their town. The NH supreme court refused to hear a case that exposed crimes by a judge. I am declared a terrorist and my freedom is taken for 6 months to stop my volunteer help. I have violated no laws although the government would like you to believe that I did. The News papers refuse to print the truth. The Veteran’s Administration has condemned me to death all because I believe in a nation that has refused to accept me. Does pain really exist?

I want to thank the NH Free Press for printing my letters.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Veteran’s Complaint 8-30-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-6596217

The VA complaint web site has asked me to stop using this for my complaints. Tell your superiors no, because I will not stop. The VA in NH has stopped my medical care for political self gain. This is a crime (complaint). My medical file has been red flagged, just to harass me. My medical was restored after 5 months but it is now substandard and poor. To use any U.S. citizens medical condition for political reasons is wrong. I am a 100% service connected disabled Veteran. 3 injuries are combat related. These are crimes to use a disabled veterans medical condition to demonstrate the power of VA personal over disabled veterans. You in the VA know about my letters because you complain to me so much about them. Correct the wrongs then complain. You are violating the law to have a veteran medical stopped for your self gain. You are pressing me to commit suicide. You refuse to stop the wrongs. Stop complaining and take action against your co-workers to stop these crimes of harming a disabled veteran. I have violated no laws. What I have done is expose wrongs in government. You have violated the American’s with disabilities act, Laws and constitution to harm this veteran.

The director of the VA in Manchester told me to commit suicide. You are asking me to stop telling people that the VA is harming Veterans. You may not like what I am saying but I do not care. I will say it over and over until the wrongs are corrected. NH Congress Woman Carol Shea-Porter used my combat related medical condition to have VA Dr. Biswas file involuntary commitment papers to stop my letters to the editor. The Lee Police showed up at my home and chained and shackled me in front of my family to hall me off because of Dr. Biswas The local hospital determined Dr Biswas’s papers had no merit. The VA is trying to stick me with this Ten thousand dollar bill. The VA committed a crime in ordering me into a nut house, now the VA is causing finical hardship on me to help Shea-Porter’s criminal use of government powers to harm a disabled Veteran. The rules, laws and Constitution are so clear. You in the Veterans administration are criminally aiding the NH government to shut me up. Judge Fauver criminally violated the law to protect the Madbury NH selectmen using government powers for personal revenge against Madbury Residents.

I say in another day someone in government will wake up and correct these wrongs. I say give it one more day, suicide is not the answer. Imagine coming back to a world with no memory. Learning to respect the law and volunteer to help society. Imagine killing other human beings just to have this privilege. Imagine ordering men into their death day after day because it is your duty. Imagine the veterans administration using criminal acts to harm a disabled veteran for the benefit of other government wrongs. Imagine the news media refusing to print the truth. Imagine I am running for District 21 NH state senate and a free election does not exist for disabled Veterans. Imagine that I am a nut and another day may not be necessary. Why did I come back to a world that I do not belong.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

I volunteered yesterday 8-29-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

You never really know how good you have it until you look at the person next to you. May be 20 years ago, I met this man at a Pig Roast in New Boston NH. He owned his own stone mason business. A good father and husband, life was grand. A rare eye defect over the years has caused him to become legally blind. Here is a man with every thing going for him, now has to change his life. Unable to build fireplaces, walls and other because of his loss he decided to buy over a 100 acre farm in Canterbury NH. His wife, daughters and him build a horse business with stalls, riding arena indoors and out. They also take in foster children from 1 day to years helping children get started. He works 12 to 18 hour days to make ends meet. At the pig roast years earlier I told him if he ever needed help I will volunteer my time. He was short handed and needed to get some hay off the fields. AS I walked down the dirt road leading to the riding area a man came up on a four wheeler and stopped about 5 feet from me. He got off and did not even see me until with in a foot or so. He did not know whom it was until I spoke. This man checked the Hay to determine when to rake and bale. He drove the tractor around the field raking and bailing over 500 Bales never missing a beat. Here is a man that can not see the beautiful scenery but makes life better for others. What a wonderful world this can be.

I am running for NH State Senate. I volunteer every day to help others. I am a 100% disabled Veteran. I handed Governor Lynch a Redress of Grievances yesterday. Over the years I have handed the NH governor many Redress of Grievances. The law and NH Constitution guarantee the individuals the right to bring wrongs committed by state personal to the full house, senators and representatives.

Judge Fauver intentionally violated the law and Constitution to aid the Madbury selectmen to use government powers to seek revenge against local Madbury residents. The NH supreme court refused to hear a case that spelled out 29 or more constitutional criminal acts by Fauver and the selectmen. NH declared me a terrorist to silence my free speech. A NH congresswoman used federal powers to have a VA Dr Biswas file commitment papers to stop my letters to the editor. Then she filed a false police report to get me arrested. The NH, VA director stopped my VA medical for political self gain. I volunteer my time to help these Madbury residents and you destroy my world.

I am proud to be a United States Citizen. The newspapers refuse to print my opinion letters in direct conflict with our Constitution. Where does a 100% disabled Veteran go. I knew doing hay was the wrong thing for a disabled Veteran (with four disabilities) to do. I guess that I was trying to bring my wish of death to a respectable conclusion. Seeing my friend again and what he has achieved made me realize what so many have giving their lives for over the history of the U.S. is worth it. What I did as a U.S. Marine even though it was morally wrong , I did it for you. My lack of emotion to pain and death is my responsibility. We must all work to correct the wrongs in government to make the U.S. better for all. I am running to bring the government back to the people. Tell the newspapers to print my opinion letters even if the editor’s do not like them. Freedom only exists if we work to keep it.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Killing a nation, candidate NH state senate 8-27-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

“Any one right of any one individual can not be violated or that government must be abolished and a new one started”. This is our Constitution. The VA stopping a 100% disabled veteran’s medical care for political self gain is a crime. Declaring a 100% disabled veteran a terrorist and taking his freedom for six months to demonstrate the power of government over the people is a crime. For Judge Fauver to criminally violate the constitution to aid the Madbury NH selectmen’s acts of revenge against Madbury NH residents that the selectmen do not like is a crime. The NH supreme court refusing to hear a case because it exposed crimes by judge’s is a crime. A U.S. congresswoman from NH using federal powers to have a VA doctor file false involuntary commitment orders by using a 100% disabled veteran’s service connected medical conditions to stop this veteran’s letters to the editor is a crime. For this U.S. congress woman to file a false police report to have this 100% disabled veteran arrested to show the power of government over the people is a crime. For the news to embellish this woman record of helping veterans and cover these criminal acts to harm a veteran is called censorship.

For the news media to censor the public from a candidate’s views and opinions is a crime of the highest magnitude. The editor’s write articles about the other candidate’s and publish letters embellishing the record of other candidate’s but refuse to print my letters. My letters are documented truth.

I have serious medical problems. I do not want your pity. If I was looking to protect myself or my family I would just stay silent and let these crimes continue. I volunteer to help other people every day. I believe in the United States of America no matter what you (the People) are doing to me.

I served as a U.S. Marine. I came back with 4 permanent disabling injuries. Three are combat related. The VA suicide hotline hounds me to commit suicide. The VA uses the local police to pressure me into suicide. Judge Fauver uses the local sheriff to maneuver me into suicide. The pressure and conflicts in my head, trying to understand the rational of the people. You send children off to defend and protect a constitution and yet you allow this to happen. I may not remember my child hood before becoming a U.S. Marine but every event that I lived through as a U.S. Marine is constant in my head. I have violated no laws. My mistake seems to be that I volunteer to help others.

Why did I have to come back alive. I know that there can be no punishment destructive enough for what I did as a U.S. Marine. You people “MOCK” what the definition of freedom means to the point reality does not make since. Why do you (U.S.) give me everything and destroy the one thing that means it all to me. What so many or our military gave their lives for. The People’s Rights

Our Constitution is meant to protect every one of you. The family in Madbury NH to even this disabled United States Marine. Will my death help you realize what you are losing. I know it will sure make me feel better. You have violated one individual’s rights (mine) and many others. Criminal acts listed in this letter must be addressed in public session, Yet the news media is violating the trust of the people by censoring this candidates views and opinion. The NH government refuses me a “Redress of Grievances” which is our Guaranteed Constitutional right.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Complaint: who cares. I am a candidate for NH state senate

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Complaints of criminal acts by government personal and no one cares. People complain to me about my letters every day. My letters are so well broadcast over the internet if any one could question a fact as not being the truth they would. Editors claim my letters are to libelous to print or that they hurt people with good reputations. If a government worker comet’s a wrong it is our duty to correct it. When the people in our government use the courts and power of their elected positions for revenge to stop free speech some one better be willing to speak out. When a NH congress woman in DC can use federal powers to force a VA doctor to file false involuntary commitment orders against a disabled veteran to stop the veteran from writing letters to the editor, some thing is wrong. When a U.S. congress woman can file false police reports to get a citizen arrested to stop free speech some thing is wrong. When the VA in NH can stop a 100% disabled veteran’s medical care for political self gain something is wrong. When the director of the NH, VA can tell a 100% disabled veteran to commit suicide, the Boston Globe newspapers can send a letter telling a 100% disabled veteran to commit suicide, The NH governor can send the state police to tell a 100% disabled veteran to commit suicide something is wrong. The American legion physically removed a 100% disabled veteran, life member from the Veteran’s picnic at the legion, what is wrong?

I have violated no laws, yet the newspapers and government have harmed my character in the public eye (violating our constitution) to destroy me. Judge Fauver criminally violated the constitution to aid the Madbury NH selectmen’s criminal acts of revenge against local Madbury NH residents. This is a truthful statement which not one person disputes. I present it to the NH supreme court and to cover up wrongs in the judicial branch they refused to hear it. The NH government declared me a terrorist by taking words out of context in my letters to demonstrate to the public threatening letters. The bogus charges were dropped. After taking my freedom to demonstrate the power of the criminals I was trying to expose. You notice the news papers did not print the terrorist letters just quoted words out of context.

I am running for NH State Senate. The editors talk about the other candidates but refuse to inform the public of my opinion and views. This effects every citizen in the U.S. I was injured four times while I served in the U.S. Marine Corps. Three are combat related. I re-live the violent , in-human acts that I committed as a U.S. Marine every day. I survived living in some of the most inhuman conditions to come back to this? I survived as an American advisor on 8 convoys delivering surplus supplies to friendly camps deep in the bush of Thailand, Laos and Cambodia. I was captured, I killed with a bayonet and escaped to come back to this. While TAD to Vietnam I had a mortar blow up the out house that I left seconds earlier and a sniper’s bullet pass with in inches of my head. A free and fair election is what our military personal are giving their lives for. I came back to a nation that does not want me. I came back to a nation that I do not belong.

The criminal acts by the VA, NH government and newspapers are in direct conflict with every thing I learned the United States of America stood for. I would suggest everyone that reads this letters pass it on to others because if you do not your family could be next.

Peter Macdonald Candidate for NH State Senate and a 100% disabled Veteran

Hate, love, war 8-24-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

A child yells “I will Kill you” to a friend that he is fighting with. Soon after they are best friends again. A child becomes a teenager and is sent off to war where he learns to kill with ease and devotion. A veteran returns to where 89% of the people that he risked his life for that never served never understand; not the same child returned. The government drops you into a civilized society expecting reality to exist in this hardened adult’s mind. Joy and happiness turns to miss understandings and rage. Relationships dissolve as the social barriers grow in defense against this emotion less mind. The veteran becomes alone and defiant. The once innocent child that yelled “I will Kill you” echoes in the Veteran’s mind not as a child but as his defense against the enemy. A civilized society can not recognize the child’s yell as it now comes from a scary adult. The child’s life given in defense of our country is now taken by the people that the Veteran once believe was his friends and neighbors. Veteran death becomes the answer.

I came back to the U.S. after 31 months overseas, 70-74. At 17, I joined the Marine Corps. I am 100% disabled. One of my injuries is complete memory loss of any event prior to my 17^th birthday. I have three more combat related injuries. I volunteer every day since I came back to help others. Because I volunteer my time to help a Madbury NH family that I did not know at the time, You the people of NH have become afraid of me. Judge Fauver criminally violated the Constitution to help the Madbury NH selectmen harm local residents. The NH supreme court covered up the case. The NH government declared me a terrorist and took my freedom before dropping the bogus charges. The VA stopped my medical care to stop my free speech. A NH congress woman had me arrested on false charges. Then she used my service received medical disabilities to attempt to put me in the nut house to stop my letters to the editor. The American legion in Manchester NH physically remove me from a Veteran’s Picnic that I was invited too. This congress woman is not a member or Veteran, but I was removed.

I have not violated the law. I am running for district 21 NH state senate. The newspapers and government are keeping the people from knowing me. There is a record of the NH governor, NH, VA director and Boston Globe telling me to commit suicide. The VA stopped my medical care to shut me up. As a child I learned to respect the United States of America while trying to stay alive defending your world.

The NH government, Veteran’s administration and newspapers have violated the law to stop me. Now “Veterans” at the American Legion have inflict physical harm to remove me from a place that I am a life member. I see a child’s face yell with pain every day as I remove my bayonet from his gut. The hard part is that even today I feel no emotion for what I did. I came back alive as punishment for what I did. I came back to a place where even veterans believe what I have done is wrong. There are many Veterans out there cast aside by a society that can not accept what these children have become. Now the American Legion and VFW have become so political that some veterans are not worth the risk to lose political favor. The law is being violated by the people we trust and every one is afraid to speak up. Think of the children we bury every day that return from a war that a draft dodger started to create a legacy for himself. Think about the consequences of leaving one U.S. citizens with out Constitutional rights. Think about that child’s yell as you imagine a Marine left alone on the battle field because brother Veterans were afraid of losing political connections. Think about that child’s yell as you bury your child if you are lucky enough for that child’s body to be returned from a conflict or war. Think about that child’s yell as you realize many returning veterans commit suicide because you swept them under the rug. Think about allowing the government to criminally violate the law to harm a veteran and the American Legion and VFW desert a brother Veteran. Think about how many children gave their life over the history of the United States of American that you refuse to hear their yell.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Abuse toward Veterans 8-23-08

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

I get calls and I read in the paper of Veterans getting abused every day. Until I started sending out emails every day to over 1000 newspapers, judges and others, never in a million years would I believe government abuse toward veterans could be this bad. The Veterans administration in NH stopped my medical care for over 5 months. It has been restarted but it is now sub-standard and limited. I am 100% service connected. Three of my four injuries are combat related. In order to build a record for the public eye the VA has assigned a Dr Dan to council me. Don’t get me wrong Dr Dan is a great person whom puts over 100% to the benefit of veterans. The VA did this criminal act to benefit Congresswoman Shea-Porters need to crush me, and the NH governments need to cover up criminal government acts to harm the public. I hear from some veteran’s that claim the VA is the best care in the world for them. That is great. I am talking about the military that is returning from war with silent demons not yet revealed. I am talking about the ones that the government disapproves their medical claims for years to control the governments budget. I am talking about the Veterans that die on the street because elected officials are more concerned with their pet projects until it is election time. Election year everyone claims how much they do for Veterans and the newspapers suck it up. Veteran abuse is appalling yet the United States ignores it.

Judge Fauver committed crimes against our constitution in his efforts to aid the Madbury NH selectmen’s crimes against local residents. The NH supreme court covered up these crimes. NH declared me a terrorist and took my freedom for 6 months to protect the legal empires dominance over the people, before the bogus charges were dropped. The NH and U.S. government is using my daunting memory of what I did as a U.S. Marine to force my suicide. These are crimes that the newspapers refuse to print even in my opinion letters. Where does a Veteran go?

To help make this nation a better place for all I decided the best way to correct these wrongs in government was to run for District 21 NH state senate. The newspapers refuse to openly inform the public of my candidacy. My words and opinion is censored.

I have read this letter and I agree it makes me look paranoid, mentally de-ranged, or even a danger to society. At coffee this morning at Young’s restaurant in Durham NH a local school board member asked me to watch her pocketbook while she went next door to do her laundry. I everyday do so much volunteer work helping others, people that know me trust me. Many people that don’t know me, ask me for help or I see that they need help and I donate my time to help. How can I have so much good and yet the newspapers and government officials have destroyed my credibility in the public eye.

Yes I do have serious medical problems yet my medical was stopped. The newspapers and government officials are so afraid that I could get elected criminal acts are being committed to stop me. You people do not want the truth. You want to live in your harmoniously protected cocoons. I came back to a world that I do not belong which made me realize life is not short enough. Where does a disabled veteran go when it is the people we trust doing the criminal abuse. Veterans are abused every day and you just do not care. It should be the people’s choice in an election not the news medias. Is my suicide the only way that I can get out of this place that I do not belong?

Print the truth and let the people decide Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Letters to Shea-Porter 8-23-08 NH District 21 State senate candidate

Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217

Veteran’s every day are treated with disrespect not because people want too! Our system has just become complacent with what we (Veteran’s) do to become Veterans. If as a veteran someone wrote a letter that described constitutional crimes inflicted on a Veteran and no newspaper would publish it. What can be said? It is not just me. Many Veterans across the U.S. are sand bagged every day. In my case I can document what Congress woman Shea-Porter, using my 100% service connected medical condition to have a VA doctor Biswas file false commitment orders to stop a letter to the editor, then she had me arrested with a false complaint to the Dover NH police. The American Legion in Manchester NH physically removed me from Shea-Porter’s Veteran’s picnic. I was invited and I am a Life Member of the legion. The VA stopping my medical care is beyond any crime that I could imagine the government doing. The VA stopped my 100% medical care for political self gain to stop my free speech. The worst part is I have made everyone aware of these and many more crimes against veterans and no newspaper or person will help. I get calls from VA and government officials across the U.S. every day. These people care and want to help me with my medical condition but will not do any thing to stop the crimes that are being committed against veterans. My life ended the day I stuck a bayonet in another human being. I just did not realize it. Helping the Veterans returning today (the child we sent of the fight for the U.S.) that nothing bad is ever inflicted on them as is done to all to many Veterans of past wars.

My dilemma started when a family from a small NH town of Madbury NH called me in Lee NH, to ask for help. They had read one of my letters to the editor. Judge Fauver intentionally criminally violated the constitution to aid the Madbury selectmen’s crimes against the local people. Do you know why I can make such a statement. Because is the truth. The NH supreme court covered up the crimes. The NH government violated the Constitution to inflict pain and harm to stop me. The NH, VA director told me to commit suicide. The NH governor uses the state police to tell me to commit suicide. The Boston Globe sends me emails telling me to commit suicide. Judge Fauver uses the local sheriff to demonstrate the power of a judge. They harass me with false arrests (detainments) Do you see my dilemma, some leaders tell me to commit suicide and others are trying to help me not to. The VA uses the VA suicide hotline to pressure me into suicide. The VA suicide hotline uses the local police to harass my family to pressure me into suicide. Newspapers no longer police ethical crimes by other editors.

I can document every fact in all my letters. I do not need our trusted government officials and newspapers ordering me to commit suicide. Every day when I re-live the cruel and inhuman conditions that I lived and inflicted on others as a U.S. Marine suicide is my favorite escape to reality. Does reality exist.

Some of you care and I thank you for this. Don’t care about this Veteran. I ask you to think of all the Veterans across the U.S. Treating a Veteran with equal rights that we defended for our nation is all that Veterans ask. Most Veterans return to a normal life, and lost the ability to help others. These are the Veterans in the American Legion that lost respect for what we gave our lives for. Constitution.

I am running for District 21 NH state senate and no newspaper will tell the people. Think about it if I can write and publish this letter and no one cares why did I come back alive.

Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi